Dreams in Reality…

NIGHTMARES CAN BE SPOOKY… BUT CAN IT FREAK AND SPOOK EU AT THE SAME TIME? INDEED IT CAN…

I came back from a great game of pool and football game yesterday night, reaching home at 4am, updated my blog at that moment, and finally, went to bed at 5am.

I was lying down on the bed, rolling over and over again, hoping that I would get to sleep. Listened to the morning prayers and I knew, insomnia had bugged me again. It was until the whole Morning Prayer is over, and only I fell asleep, into my dreams.

I was in a place, which looks familiar that would be my bedroom at home. Every room has a door and normally, while sleeping, a person would lock their door up, and so did I. I went to sleep on the bed, and when I suddenly woke up from sleeping, the door was open. I remembered I locked the door. Maybe somebody opened it, and so I locked it once again. And again, it opened. I was freaking out as everyone was sleeping. I walked downstairs and suddenly saw my mom preparing breakfast, and I told her the whole thing. She said that maybe there was somebody who tries to break into your room. Just go back to sleep. And so I went back and once again, I locked the door, and it happens again. It opened…

I quickly take my books and walked to college, as for my guess it was my final examination period. I walked and walked and walked, and came to a hall made out of bamboo, where I had been there a few times (in my dreams). It was an examination hall, located right in the middle of forest, with a staircase also made of bamboo, walking down to a small table where I would usually be studying there.

While walking passed the examination hall, I heard a little girl’s voice, speaking through the microphone, “a for elephant…. b for elephant…. c for elephant…. d for elephant…” I heard that voice and it indeed gave me goose bumps. I ran towards the little bamboo staircase and it became louder and louder, “e for elephant…. f for elephant….”

I couldn’t bear listening to it and I screamed, “StuXXd FXXking BiXXh…” I suddenly turned conscious as I was awake from my dream. My eyes were open, but the voice did not stop. It continued “g for elephant… h for elephant…” and I screamed once again, this time in reality, the vulgar language that I screamed in my dream, and it stopped.

I was sweating all over, and finally it stopped. The sun rise and finally everything was over. It wasn’t that the dream spooked me out, but instead, it was the voice of the girl that continued after I woke up from my dream. But rather, life goes on…

Dreams might only be happening in a person’s mind while the whole body is unconscious, but what does it mean when dreams came into reality? The answer is somewhere out there…

It happened to me, what about Eu?

Dreams…

IT IS FASCINATING ON HOW DREAMS CAN ACTUALLY MANIPULATE A PERSON’S MIND, BY TELLING THEM WHAT THEY WANT AND REMINDING THEM ON THINGS THAT THEY HAD FORGOTTEN. BUT DON’T YOU THINK THAT IT IS SORT OF IRRITATING AT TIME?

It was a tiring day for me, as I came back from a massive interview today, which might also be a new stepping stone for me today. But regardless of what, I went for class after the interview and went out dinner with Ryan.

After the dinner, I went back home and I started keeping myself ready for bed, although it was only around 7 o’clock, but I was tired, mentally and physically, therefore, I took the initiative to go to bed.

I was sleeping and something woke me up, which was a clubbing song. I only had a sleep for two hours, and what was fascinating enough was shaking my body when I woke up, due to the song. Maybe my mind was trying to tell me, it is time to get some relaxation, to relax my soul, my mind and my body for a bigger challenge.

But I was fascinated on how dreams can do it. Dancing while waking up at the first place? You might be asking on whether my housemate has played a clubbing song, but it was quiet when I woke up, therefore, there aren’t any senses of for me to wake up, and now, I’m feeling awesome. Maybe because of all the adrenaline that runs through my body due to the dance that I did.

These are dreams, it might be a nightmare, it might be a sweet dream, but dreams are meant to be understood, and therefore, clubbing, should I say “here I come?” or should I say “I would consider?” I think the answer would be, I should consider, as proper planning should be done.

I Dreamt a Dream…

DO YOU KNOW WHEN SOME TIMES DREAMS LOOK LIKE REALITY? AND DO YOU KNOW WHEN SOME TIMES DREAMS DO HAPPEN IN REALITY. DREAMS CAN BE SWEET, CAN BE AWFUL, CAN BE SOMETHING WILD, AND CAN BE SOMETHING TAME. THESE ARE WHAT DREAMS ARE…

I was sleeping soundlessly, peacefully for these few days, where there are no classes at all, no replacements, ignoring all the homework and doing nothing but to sleep and rest my mind. Maybe because I slept too much, or maybe because I was really tired which had caused my first day of sleep reached up to 18 hours, which is definitely over the limit of a normal human being.

Nevertheless, the same thing happened to me for the next two nights where I was sleeping for another 15 hours each night, which had caused me to lose the chance of meeting sunlight. But regardless, it was to rest my body, my mind and my soul, after a long week of stress and happenings towards me. But dreams occurred during my slumber. Loads and loads of them, but I could not remember either one of them, except for one which has woken me up in the midst of my sleep.

It was a dream, where I saw, the person I was in love, was hugged by another men, walking through the path right in front of me, and all I did was nothing and without knowing, I woke up the next moment, with tears shredding down my cheeks. I thought that bed should be the most private place everyone could have ever had, the most congenial place for a person to rest it mind, body and soul, but all it did to me was to bring back more bad memories towards me.

My life for the past whole week was like a wilting tree, with 18 hours of care given back to this tree, which includes watering the tree, putting fertilizer and with a little bit of care and love for the tree only I grew back alive, and with just one mistake, this tree almost died, caused by this dream. It has tried to grow, tried to live, tried to break through obstacles, but the only fact was the past is still haunting it. Bad memories, bad dreams, bad environment and many more are trying to kill this tree, and all this tree can do was to live itself, live life to the fullest, to the longest, where you wouldn’t know when your life will end, therefore, live, for the sake of yourself and for the sake of others…

Traditionally New Moon

HAVE YOU TRIED ON A DAY WHERE LIFE IS HECTIC, EVERYTHING WENT WRONG, AND THE DAY PASSED SO QUICKLY IN A SUDDEN AND SUDDENLY SLOWED DOWN AGAIN? IT WAS A DAY WHERE IT WAS SO TIRING AND YOU STILL HAD TO CONTINUE THE DAY UNTIL THE END OF IT, LIKE SHOPPING AND WATCHING MOVIE, BECAUSE OF A WORD “PROMISE” AND THERE IT GOES. BUT WHILE SHOPPING AND WALKING THOUGH THE WHOLE SHOPPING MALL, MY EMOTIONS WAS DOWN, BECAUSE JUST IN A SUDDEN, SO MANY MEMORIES FLASHES BY, AND I DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO BUT JUST TO WALK FASTER AND TO WALK AWAY, FROM THE SADDISTIC MEMORY…

It was a hectic day as I did not sleep the whole night 2 days ago because I was rushing for the law assignment and could not finish until 6am in the morning and I screwed it… tried to rest for a while but could not, and there I went for moral class at 9.30 in the morning and there was when my class started and everything went wrong, did not take my lunch because I lost my appetite, and was very hyperactive during class hour and I finished my class at 4pm, went back home and packed everything (jacket) and went back to college to meet up with Eileen to go to the LRT station together.

We went to the LRT station, waited for Melinda and went to KLCC together and everything went well I think. We walked around, and the only thing we wanted to have this trip was because of some problems that I and Melinda were facing…. Which was stress….

We walked a while and went for our dinner and rushed for our movie, New Moon, which was released yesterday and eventually many things happened inside. The movie started and I fell asleep and I only woke up during the actions, which are fighting between characters, and there was one thing that I did unconsciously… which was I farted… you know… those kind of machine gun like fart… and I did not knew whether Melinda notice or not… cause it was quite loud… and I was sleeping… and I was still farting when I suddenly woke up… haha… and thank god the movie ended… cause I was so tired and I slept through all the conversations they were having in the movies.

After the movie, we went for a walk for a while, and we were walking through all the shops where they were selling dresses, and this was the time where all those pictures flashes through my mind, and this was the main point I went out shopping with them, to forget about all the pictures, but I could not. It just came by again and again and my mood turned out pretty bad until I came back at home. Maybe because I was too tired, tired of everything, and slept for 18 hours until I woke up today and felt better. But those pictures still kept coming, and it made me think a lot while I was tiring enough and thanks Melinda for cheering me up. hehe. You have to work hard on it also alright? I know you can get through this obstacle, although it is quite a big one. But no worries, we will always be there to support you alright? And lets work together to get through this obstacle together as time will not manage everything, when fate is in our hand.

Dreams...

Path which has been walked through many times, but did not thought that it was familiar. But once in a while, a question might be brought up to your head, “this walking path looks familiar. It seems that I have walked through this way for the second time.” Every step which has been taken seems very familiar and this is where more and more question appears…

Having a tough time as a tertiary education student, assignments, test, exams, personal stuff to be accomplished in just a minimal time, where as a life of a student, sleeping has turned into a habit where no matter when or where, it can be a place where sleep can take place. It did not happened to me in the past when I was still in high school or primary school where sleeping can be this casual. But for the past week, sleeping in class has turned into a habit of mine. Imagine sleeping in class when the lecturer is actually teaching right in front of the auditorium where focus has been made tough for me. But nevertheless, these lecturers did not take any action on me. Phew… But sleeping in class had made me embarrassing enough. Spectacles dropped down to the ground, pencils fell off from my hand, and even saliva came out from my mouth. What other things that might possibly happen when I was asleep? Only those who are observing me knew.

But why was I so tired. I napped through the afternoon causing me to have a sleepless night and it all started because I had a nightmare at night, causing me to have a sleepless night on that particular day and I needed to take a nap in the afternoon to actually regain my energy and focus to continue with my daily activities and the biggest problem here is that I did not remember what dream it was. But that wasn’t the only time where I had nightmares. Even when I take naps in the afternoon, nightmares hunted me. I still remembered where there was once in which I took a nap in the afternoon, and it only took me five minutes to wake up from a horrible dream and that I continued my nap after that dream hoping that nothing would ever happen in my continuous nap. But the same thing repeatedly happened and the weirder part is that it is a continuous of the previous dream itself. I got scared and I just ignored my nap and continued with my daily schedule.

Until the night, I was very tired and I tried to sleep but it hasn’t been going good for me as my body clock has been “rescheduled” to the afternoon. So all I did was rolling around on my bed, even with weird sleeping postures that might bring me into sleep but it did not.

I’m a weird person, who likes to think a lot and I found out one thing through my observation. Dreams that I actually remembered will happen in my life but it also goes the other round where dreams that I do not remember will actually happen in reality. I do not know about others but this is through my own experience. What a weird person you might think of right. But I was thinking, why didn’t dreams that I actually remembered won’t happen in my life while it happens the other way round? Is it because dreams that I actually remembered will make me to be more careful with every step of work that I am taking? Or is it some other reason? There is no answer for it.

If we take a look at the Chinese tradition, it is said that people who had passed away would actually pass messages through dreams. How true is it? Personally, I had never tried it before, but traditions being traditions. In the modern age, most of the things can be explained through scientific explanation, but not everything can be done so and this is where the traditional saying comes in.

But nevertheless, sleep is still a need in a person’s life. No matter how bad that dream would be, and no matter how hard you try to analyze or understand that dream itself, life still needs to goes on. Regardless on what obstacles will happen in the future, regardless of what message your dream is trying to tell you, or regardless on how trustful of a person towards traditional or scientifically explanation dreams, we are still humans and there are still so many unpredictable things regarding the spiritual of a human. Live life to the fullest.