Loneliness…. (Part 3)

HUMANS CAN BE LONELY AT TIMES, MAYBE FOR A MOMENT, OR MAYBE FOR A LONG PERIOD. BUT THERE ARE TIMES WHEN PEOPLE GETS LONELY, AND RATHER THAN TAKING ACTION TO CURE THAT LONELINESS, THEY TEND TO KEEP IT INSIDE, AS A PART OF THEMSELVES...

Humans are unique, aren’t they, especially men, where they could have the mindset of being masculinity in them until they really forgot what the people around them are all about. One of my friend told me this before, “You will only keep the sad things to yourself, and cherish others as much as you can,” and from there, I could understand that, deep down in everyone’s heart, there is a person, hiding within darkness, hidden with loneliness.

I was lying down on the bed trying to get to sleep and as you can see where I couldn’t, and I suddenly thought of a person, a friend, a brother of mine, where he could cherish everyone’s heart up, with the smiles on his face, with the jokes from his mouth, with a lit and burn into everyone’s heart. But I wonder, what were his thoughts? Was he this cheerful all the time? Or is it just a hidden deep down the black and dark heart?

It must have sounded weird on why did I talk about another men, but in the fact, he is my brother, although he is not my real brother, but he is definitely a very close and caring foster brother. But I was still wondering, every time I see him, all he has is a smile on his face, but there were some time that I had caught him on his face that he was lonely. It wasn’t the looks of having problems; it was just a look that shows his loneliness in his heart. That is why I was thinking, although I am a guy myself, but I do ask these kinds of question, does the word "masculinity" shows that men shouldn’t talk to others about their emotions, and the only thing is to cherish themselves and others up? Not even to their closest friend or best buddies? Or does it feel weird talking something which is deep down from the heart to another man?

I know that not every men would act like this, but I do think that all these are just a wrong perception and if possible, it would be the time to change and take this perception away, because there are so many people outside there who actually cares, it is just that although the feeling doesn’t feel right at the first place, it will sooner or later. Although things might not change now, but things might change later, as closer bonds would help to build up a better relationship, and one of them is by telling out their heart to others as others would understand more about you, bridging the gap between friends and families. If not, the consequences might end up with maybe… Depression?

Don’t feel shy, just go for it, because there if nothing to be shy about. If you think that being masculinity can solve every problem, then this would also be the problem, deep down in a person’s heart that can be solved. Just go for it, as a small effort of changes would turn your life into another dimension that you might have not discovered.

Do it, for a new life, for a new Eu…..

Loneliness

WALKING THROUGH THE ROADS WALKED EVERYDAY, BUT SOMETHING IS DIFFERENT TODAY, SUDDENLY FELT THE LONELINESS IN ME, DID NOW KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING, ALTHOUGH THE ROAD IS BEING COVERED WITH PEOPLE, JUST FELT THE LONELINESS, THE DARKNESS… inside me…

Maybe things did not go as I thought for these few weeks, but changes can be seen since the day I was separated with my buddies, things has gone way far, way different than I expected. I felt alone, I felt that I did not have friends anymore, and even the person whom I chat through the phone, was gone, and I am all alone.

Things are so different when I moved back to the city, or maybe moving to a rural area wasn’t a good idea after all. Perhaps, looking at the world in a wider scale was a bad idea, but things definitely had cleared up my mind a lot. The word “lonely” is used in the city, while the word “peaceful” is used in a rural area. Lonely is because I am alone, peaceful is also because I am alone, but the feeling is different. Lonely is because I am alone without anymore friends, peaceful was because I met too much friends and it is time for me to be myself again.

City and rural, definitely brought a big changes towards my life, maybe this is what “culture shock” actually meant. But being a city boy for 18 years before moving to a rural area, adapting back to a life in a city definitely will not be a problem. But here comes the problem again, I am lonely, and just in a sudden, all of the memories flashes through my mind when I was in that rural area for two years, where everyone knew everybody. But in the city, all we can do is to protect ourselves from getting to know somebody, just for self protection, which makes the city unsafe, not trustable, and therefore, the only person whom a person could trust would be ourselves and of course, our buddies, no others.

Walking down the same path which is walked everyday just for 5 minutes, has brought me to another level of thoughts, life in the city depends on ourselves, all we do are for our own good, and any problems we faced must be discovered, must be solved by ourselves. Although it might be hard, but face the fact, this is the life of a city. Here comes the question, is rural better or is it that the city is better? The answer depends on the thought itself…

Lonely because of opportunity...

SOMETIMES, LIFE CAN BE LONELY. THERE IS A SAYING WHICH SAYS THAT WHEN YOU LAUGH, THE WORLD LAUGHES WITH YOU, BUT WHEN YOU CRY, YOU CRY ALONE. BUT IS IT TRUE ENOUGH THAT WHEN YOU LAUGH, THE WORLD LAUGHES WITH YOU? SOMETIMES YOU MIGHT BE LAUGHING ALONE WHICH WILL THEN TURN YOU IN TO A CASE OF SADDISTIC AS THE MATTER IN FACT IS THAT YOU ARE ALONE.

It has been around a month since this planning of joining some sort of evil plan of ours on one of the Saturday between me and my friends… and clearly, two different parties of friends. I actually invited another party to join because I knew that they actually had this interest in this thing. This thing cannot be mentioned here because it is what I like to call P&C (Private and Confidential), where is it only kept to personal use. But one thing is that I could not believe that this plan has been ruined.

I knew that both parties are having the same interest in this, although their interest are not as much as mine, I guess, but like that I have told them, opportunity knocks in the door only once in a lifetime. People might be saying that, opportunity always knocks on my door all the time and this is why they take it for granted. But what to say is that, the opportunity that might be knocking on your door right now is a different opportunity. “Opportunities” might be lining up in front of your house, each and everyone waiting just to knock your door and then only thing you did was to ignore it and therefore it left. But like what I have said, opportunity knocks at the door only once. Why did I say this? It is because even thought you might be looking into the same opportunity, but that is only the physical side of it, as for the content of it, it might have been modified according to current situations and there goes your opportunity. It is just like a salesman came by ringing your door bell and then left without information because all you did was ignored it. But that salesman might have what you needed during emergency but not the other salesman who comes knocking after the door after the first salesman arrives. This is why I said that the content of it will be different.

There had been so many things in life that I have missed, but one thing that I learnt is that, you cannot fit in all the opportunities in at one time, but the only thing you can do is to choose your opportunity wisely, rather than letting it go and you will regret forever for not taking that opportunity to make yourself a person who might be a millionaire in just a night. So, just remember to appreciate every opportunity you have and good luck with those opportunities, because it will be another new adventure in your life.