THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS IN THIS NON-ENDING LIFE… THAT IS WHY LIFE IS SUCH A GREAT THING TO HAVE. THEREFORE, ENJOY IT TO THE FULLEST PEEPS… ^^
It was right after exam that a normal teenage and playful life starts back as usual. Because things have been really hectic back then… so I guess, it is pretty much fair for us to have some fun right after all the business in our life back then. And pretty sure everyone put an equivalent effort to play just as much as they work back then. And this is just the beginning of it… cheers peeps… ^^
The messy table during exam...
But at least my hols started off with a great buffet...
LOLZ... so many "chicks" camwhoring... haha...
and looks like somebody is murdering those prawns....
So, should I report to the police??
and of course, we had some really nice food... ^^
and there we have another photographer in the house...
It was a fun night... and i hope everyone had fun also... ^^
EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN FEAR, BUT HAVE YOU EVER TRIED TO GET A SUDDEN FEAR WHICH COULD HAPPEN TO YOU SUDDENLY? IT HAPPENED TO ME JUST THIS BEAUTIFUL MORNING.
It wasn’t a really pleasant morning after the sudden shock on what happened to my examined paper yesterday. It was way crazier than anything that I could have thought, in which has really increased the level of uncertainty within me to continue with my studies, and yes, eventually it has brought down my self esteem, crashed and buried until it could not be found today.
Flying down to Liverpool for my summer studies is just a step away, but seems like it will be crashed in no time due to yesterday’s paper. I have been studying do hard (and I bet everyone did) that even I did not go to sleep for approximately 24 freaking hours and that paper itself is less to an implementation paper but more to the general knowledge paper, so what is the point of eve studying so hard, and also, due to the level of stress and anxiety towards that paper itself, it has exhausted me throughout the whole night, and for the first time In my whole 18 years of studying life, I’m exhausted at my first examined paper in which I would still need to continue with my studies after that.
BUT SOMETHING SHOCKING HAPPENED THIS MORNING!!!
I woke up from bed and wanted to get some studies and be prepared for the next exam, but it doesn’t seems like the anxiety level is high, but the phobia, the fear of studying within me has actually occurred, and once again, in my freaking 18 years of life. I am a person who loves to study, but the fear has caught me this morning that I even have to force myself to think differently just to hold a pen.
According to Wikipedia, this is known as Ergasiophobia / Ergophobia, in which is it the fear of work or functioning. This is where suffers of Ergophobia experience undue anxiety about the workplace environment even though they realize their fear is irrational. This fear may be a combination of fears, such fear of failing at assigned tasks, fear of speaking before groups at work (both of which are types of performance anxiety), or fear of socializing with co-workers (a type of social phobia).
Of course, people with Ergosiophobia could find treatment (but in my case, I think mine is still a mild scenario, therefore, it doesn’t need much of a treatment) through behavioral therapy, anti anxiety medication, psychotherapy, cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT), behavioral therapy, exposure therapy, relaxation techniques – controlled breathing (recommended), and medication (not recommended, because medications to treat anxiety may be utilized for treatment of symptoms, but there are no studies that support the efficacy of medication in the treatment of specific phobias. These sources are retrieved from wrongdiagnosis.com.
You might be curious on why did I use Ergasiophobia and not some other phobias that would relate to the fear of studying. It is because they do not have that particular phobia for people who fears in their studies, therefore, this would be similar, and at the same time, study is also a job, as it is a task of the students to finish up their assignment and pass their examination in order to get out of the colleges they hated so much.
Perhaps, the stress level was too high as I was not able to sleep for many nights just because of one paper. Therefore, would need to free myself off from these stress for a little while after finals.
But still, life still goes on, therefore no matter how high the mountain is, I’m still continuing my journey to conquer this mountain, even though I fell from the mountain hard enough yesterday, but giving up is never the answer. Go for it, as life is all about dealing with challenges and obstacles.
EVER WONDER ON WHY SOME ARTISTE COULD BE SO SUCCESSFUL AND SOME NOT. PERHAPS THERE IS SOMETHING BEHIND EVERYTHING THAT TELLS ON HOW GOOD HE COULD BE TO STAY IN THIS INDUSTRY.
Bruno Mars, an artiste idolized by many people, with many great songs written and recorded within a an album itself, in which has caught my attention at first with his songs, and definitely that attention is still on until today. But I think Bruno Mars has a great future planning on about his own life.
He started off thinking far enough by talking about his love life on how to even tackle a girl with the song “Just The Way You Are” by telling the girl on how good and attractive she looks that even Bruno wants to “eat” her up. But it was a great song that has turned into a hit upon release.
He also went of starting to think about what happens if he breaks up, and want to get the girl back by telling her how important she is and how far he can go just to get her back. Nonetheless, it is the song “Grenade”.
Ever wonder on how creative Bruno Mar's mind is, as his songs are all linked together within an album itself. Not like just any ordinary artiste that have songs individually, which might not even match the whole theme of the album. This is how good and how far Bruno has thought for his album.
Look at the thoughts of Bruno while writing these songs. This album consists of so many things, the pros and cons, the causes and solution, together with an action to take even when problems arises, the proper actions to take, step by step to get a girl and make that girl his, and there are so many variables and alternative that he could thought and he knew that it might happen, therefore, he gave all the choices within this album.
But I guessed he looked far enough, maybe even with a proper detailed planning on how he brought out “marry you” to his album and to his marriage. By looking at how he is going to propose, I would think that he is expecting a great marriage together with his future fiancé, and I bet everyone would want that. Not to know on whom she is yet, but we’ll be waiting for this song to go up during the wedding.
So, here is the question. "What happens next?" Live happily ever after? Nah… I think Bruno needs to come up with more ideas and thoughts on what might happen after marriage and not just to end with a happy marriage, just like a fairytale. But everyone knows that living happily ever after is not true, especially when you’re married. Perhaps, this might be one of the things that we will be waiting from his next album.
True that ya'll might think that this post is another "something" about Bruno Mars. But people, look on the other side. These public figures don't just popped up just because they want to. They don't just appear just because so suddenly they have to, but they appear for a reason, which is to guide and teach us.
Bruno might not only be teaching us a love life from another point of view, but if the whole album is looked in overall, it is actually teaching us to look further to a life, set a goal and achieve it rather than just blindly banging your heads around looking for a path anywhere. Therefore people, learn from these people as there are so many sweats, hearts and thoughts that lies beneath these idolized people.
P.S. By The Way, this is a voice from Malaysia, come hop by Malaysia when you're free. Cheers Bruno...
EVER WONDER ON HOW MUCH PEOPLE GRUMBLE ABOUT THEIR LIVES ON HOW IMPERFECT IT TEMPORARILY? AND EVER WONDER ON HOW PEOPLE ARE NOT EVEN GRATEFUL ON WHAT THEY HAVE AND WHAT THEY ARE DOING NOW? YOU’D BETTER NOT BE ONE OF THEM…
Humans meant to be humans, always the people grumbling for having an imperfect life. “Exam ar exam”… “broke ar broke”… “sienz ar sienz”. Just because of these few small little things, we just tend to make it looks serious, but just like what we were taught, always look at the bigger picture.
We all know that it is another exam period that all of us will be facing, but please be grateful that you could even study and sit for exams. Exams made are not meant to torture people, but it is a challenge towards a higher level of living. Compare yourself towards all those people who are not able to study at all due to family issues and would need to work for their whole life since they were young, and what would they work as? Factory labours? Prostitute? Walking around streets with every harm they could possibly get just to get a nickel.
But humans could just blame everything they see right in front of their eyes, not knowing that things are just as simple as ABC. Like what I right before this, a negative thinking on how bad my knee and tights could be because I could now barely walk, probably because of my old wound that was not treated well. While I was lying down on bed, I thought of a person, my very own brother, Wallace, on the surgery he has been through and how tough he were especially during his healing season and also the event season. He worked so hard for everything not knowing on what failure and pain is, because he knew something bigger was coming for him, his future.
By comparing his life to mine, what could mine possibly be? I’ve not even consulted a doctor and have jumped into a conclusion that I would need to undergo an operation which would cost 10s and thousands of ringgit. I should be grateful that at least I could still walk and make my own life, although it hurts a lot, but things will eventually come to an end, as it is only temporary.
But some memory caught my attention while I was on the bed grumbling about my leg, which would be a kid whom I met at Genting who has lost his left leg. I didn’t know what happened until he could lose his left leg, but from what I could remember, he was still happy hanging around with his friends (when I meant kid, he is only a kid who is still studying in primary school), walking with crutches all around without grumbling even a single pain, and could still see a whole load of smiles and laughter within himself. His pain is a permanent pain that can never heal forever of his life, a suffering and miserable life he’ll have for his whole freaking life, and imagine on how many years does he still have to go through.
Always the world “Impossible” divided into “I Am Possible”, a separated three words that would never ever happen to the kid anymore. But look at the word from another angle. I am possible to conquer the world; I am possible to be individualistic; I am possible to do anything and everything I wanted; I am possible to climb up the highest mountain that no one could have ever done so; and there are still so many “I Am Possible to do …” within his dictionary.
Therefore, as a fully equipped people, please stop grumbling about every single second of your life. Nobody is perfect, because in this world, nothing is perfect until you believed so; nothing can ever go downwards unless you believed so; nothing can ever stop you from your dreams unless you believed so; and nothing can live beyond you, unless you believed so.
"A human's life is a cycle, always have a beginning, and also an ending. The only differences would be the time frame of the cycle"
A STEP BEFORE THE YEAR OF 2012, WHICH IS BELIEVED TO BE THE END OF THE WORLD; BUT A NEW ENDING IS A NEW LIFE, JUST LIKE THE ENDING OF 2010, MAKING A NEW CHAPTER OF LIFE IN 2011.
Another year has gone and once again, thought to be alone this year. But things have changed as randomness picked me and my friends up to do something not extraordinary, but something different and unique as a head start for a new year. Everyone always thought that a new year, a new month, a new day is always a new life, but things would still go the way it was if there aren’t any efforts to change. Therefore, put some efforts into life and things would go differently, even if it was for a second. But why do people called it a new year is because they have bigger dreams to be achieved this year, that is not possible to be achieved within minutes, days or even months, but a total compilation of all efforts between minutes, days and months.
Treasure every second, every day, every month and every year of your life, because you wouldn’t know what would come for you all the time.
Some New Year Eve outing at KLCC
Chinese drum performance rehearsal
Fountain rehearsal
And once again, my all time favourite,
Starbucks
Look at the crowd hours before the countdown
...and see who I met
Had a little dinner in Little Penang...
... and went back for some countdown drinking,
because we wanna avoid those crowds...
... at least there is still some Christmas mood around...
...and there goes the countdown...
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3 HOURS LATER
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On the bus, on the way to Genting without any sleep...
... and look at the crowd during peak hour...
..."what shall I do with these crowd?
sneak over to the front since I'm small??"...
..."I"M SMALLER!!!"...
...had a very nice cable car view...
...but got stuck and lost once we got down from the cable car...
...together with a very cold, windy, soothing, cozy
and whatever weather you called it...
...but at least it is still filled with some Christmas spirit ^^ ....
... met my long lost brother, Jun Fai, and he treated us some food...
...together with some real awesome, 10 mins fireworks at night...
... are the Christmas and New Year spirit brought by Genting...
... together with a new wish for a new year...
... and once again, drink again...
... Couldn't find a place to sleep??...
... and that is how random we are, over night in the car,
together with someone farting in the car...
... and we can't drive off because of the thick mist,
sight distance: Less than 1 Meter
... but at least we got off early in the morning...
... and left a bumpy but great head start for another great year. ^^
