Me and only me…

IMAGINE ON HOW LONELY A PERSON COULD BE WHEN THERE ARE PROBLEMS TO BE TOLD AND THERE ISN’T EVEN A SINGLE PERSON TO TELL YOUR PROBLEMS ON. IMAGINE ON HOW HARD A PERSON COULD BE WHEN THE MOST TRUSTED PERSON COULD NOT EVEN BE BY THEIR SIDE TO LISTEN TO WHAT THEY WOULD WANT TO SAY. IMAGINE ON HOW TOUGH LIFE COULD BE WHEN LIFE IS NOT APPRECIATED. IMAGINE…

It was another night of insomnia when I wrote this. I was supposed to be sleeping by now as it is already 3.17am, and I’m still in front of my desk writing this. But before this, I was lying down on my bed, listening to my music as usual and reading novel. But things suddenly strike up and suddenly I was in a mood swing, thinking back about all the problems which would hit me in the future, thinking about all the solutions on problems that would be caused by others, but would need my help to solve it, and thinking of all the causes of these problems, which would be the present action done by others.

I was really tired for being the person giving out everything and not gaining anything back, but I do not mind on rewards. All I want is a break, just a break on things that has hit me all these while. People not listening to my opinion, I was taken as invisible, body being unhealthy and not even making it a priority to cure it, emotions rupture and nobody to talk or tell to, and imagine on how much pressure all of these could be.

I should be having my holidays right now, do things that I should have done, and do things that a teenager should have, which would be having fun in my life. This is my holiday, and helping out would be a serious fun for me. But the problem would be, every time I would want to give a helping hand, nobody wants it from me. Is it that my skills aren’t good enough or do I have a face problem?

Life hasn’t been stable enough for me at this moment, and all I wanted was to talk to somebody, and that somebody would be the person I trusted the most. Hoping that this somebody would appear in my life when I needed somebody the most.