A small small World

WALKING THROUGH PLACES THAT YOU THOUGHT MIGHT NOT BE A PLACE FOR PEOPLE TO BUMPED INTO EACH OTHER, BUT ISN'T THIS WORLD SMALL? EVERYWHERE YOU GO, EVERYTHING YOU SPEAK, THEY WOULD HEAR IT NO MATTER HOW FAR THEY ARE.

It was a day for me to get a new phone where I did not get one because I couldn't find one that suits my criteria. Looking to the left, looking to the right, scanning through everything that might be good for me to use, but still couldn't find it in the end. But at least, I found something old, which could also be something new, an old friend, where we haven't meet up since few years back. He grew taller, as usual, he became skinnier, and he speaks with a Singapore accent. Not a bad thing after all.

He went to Singapore to further his studies a few years back, and we met up in a very odd place. Sad that we couldn't sit down for a while to get a cup of coffee because I was with my parents walking around the mall. But I was glad to meet somebody back where I knew this guy since we were in primary school.

There goes my story of today. But the weirdest part is that, didn't anyone have thought on their talks before speaking something bad about somebody because this world is really really small. As I am having my industrial training right now, I met a colleague who is also having her industrial training, in the same company. She told me that she was from a place known as Klang, and until the end, we found out something that we have in common, a whole gang of friends.

Come on, isn't this world a little too small to fit everyone in? I recalled that there was once where I was working as a part timer as an usher for an international tennis game. One of my supervisor, was actually a member of another gang of my friends, and this time it was worst, our gang was actually from the north. Imagine this, how small can this world be? Even if a person who has a wide network also would not have these kind of relationship right? Just maybe that the person wouldn't know, or maybe this is the power of the Internet.

Eyes and ears are everywhere, so, BEWARE!!

CNY 2010 - Another New Year like Never Before

Some Add On Pictures: -

Picture courtesy Eu's family...

HAPPY CNY TO ALL... although it is almost the end,

Fun is always fun, but never to forget those who needs this fun too. Help others, for the sake Eu yourself... and the world...

We Are the World…

REMEMBER ON HOW WE ALWAYS WANTED PEOPLE’S HELP AND PEOPLE HAD ALWAYS HELPED US? REMEMBER WHAT KARMA IS ALL ABOUT? AND REMEMBER ON WHAT BEING HUMANE IS ALL ABOUT? AND WHO’S FAULT ARE THESE?

It was current news where there is a place in this world, known as Haiti, who has called for a S.O.S. all around the world to help them, to save them from this disaster. Maybe we were the once who are sitting in front of the television, watching people waving towards the camera, telling others that there is another survivor below these houses, and all we can do is to sit and watch, just like watching another documentary film.

But have you ever had a thought on why things like these happened this often nowadays? Just look towards everyone beside you, are they complaining that the weather is very hot? Is it because of the long drought season? And what causes this longer drought season? Who are the people behind all these things to happen? The answer would be each and every one of us.

Global warming, climate changing, ice cap melting and etc; which of these are not caused by humans? Are these the answer for Haiti? And how are we going to answer them? But what is important for them now are not these, but just to hope and pray to get back their loved ones and their home, and what we can do is just to sit and watch.

We cannot hope to use money and items to change for their loved once, but at least, we could still show them that we care. We have all we wanted and all we had, so, shouldn’t they have the same as we do? We have always grumbled that the world is not fair, so when it is fair to you, it doesn’t mean that it is fair to others. Therefore, it is the time for you to show to the world that everything is fair by sharing things that you have with others in order to stand together, at the same level and be fair.

I am not saying that you should be giving out everything you have to change for their happiness, but by just lending out a hand to help others, will give them a chance to live better. Imagine if this disaster happened to you. Would you need the help of others? Would you ever wish that you weren’t at the disaster? Regardless on how rich you are, everything will still be swept away just within seconds. Your credit card, your car, your house, and don’t even think about going to the bank to get those money back, because the banks will be facing the same thing as you are facing at that moment.

So, stop thinking about yourself. Artists are the busiest people all around the world. With road shows, concerts, album launching, and not even a time for themselves, with all the paparazzi around them would still have time to get together for a recording to ask for help for Haiti. You might be thinking, why wouldn’t they go for help themselves? But think again, would their strength be enough to save Haiti? So, what could they do to get a greater power?

It is time for us to come together, because we are one big family, save the earth for a better future of humans, save the present, for to build a better future, for Eu and me...

A Mirrored World…

HAVE YOU EVER TRIED BUMPING INTO SOMEBODY WHO LOOKS LIKE A PERSON YOU KNOW BEFORE? AND THE BEST PART IS THAT YOU KNEW THAT PERSON FOR SO LONG BUT YOU STILL COULDN’T DIFFERENTIATE ON WHETHER THE PERSON YOU BUMPED INTO IS THE CORRECT OR THE WRONG PERSON. LIFE IS AMAZING, ISN’T IT?

I left my office, came back from work and took the Light Rail Transit back home. It was a tiring day for me as I did not had enough sleep the previous night, waiting for the train to send me back on where I was supposed to be, 14 stations from an end to another.

5 minutes later, I realized the person who was sitting right in front of me looked like somebody I knew. I though it was just an illusion on maybe he looks like the person I knew from sideways only. Who knows, when there is a sit right opposite him, I sat down and I glanced something amazing. He looks exactly like my friend. I thought what I saw was wrong as I was too tired. So I took a few more glanced and he still looks like him. I was amazed on how people could look so alike, or is it that my friend actually came down and did not tell me about it or maybe, he had a twin brother? Who knows right.

I kept on investigating, and saw his friend sitting right beside him looks like another friend of mine, which was close to the person I knew. I got more excitement in me when the best part was when I saw that guy was holding a disposable camera, so my thoughts were, they must be from somewhere else, maybe foreigners or maybe from other states.

We were on the train and I took a few more glances, or maybe I should take a picture with him and send it back to my friend and told him that I met his twin brother somewhere on the train. I heard before that there are a minimum of 5 people who looks alike in this world, but isn’t it a little bit too small and odd when the world is so big, and even I could bumped into another him.

Isn’t this world amazing? With all the extraordinary things happening around, it definitely will not make a life bored. Even when a person faces the lowest part of their life, miracle will happen, as there are so many unexpected things around us.

Cheers to the World...

For Eu, my dearest Bro...

P.S. play the video below while reading...

Dear Gor,

This is what happened since day you departed away from me...



The day you left, my life turned grey for a long period, just like when a rainbow loses its colour, because things are not going as well as I could handle. I thought living a life without you would be another great knowledge of life, but seems like I was wrong. I know I made a lot of mistakes on you before that made you angry, but you gave me forgiveness and let me return back to your side, so I can learn more from you and also get close to you. And I know that you have your own life now which makes you departed away from me. I know what I did was wrong and I didn’t really want your forgiveness again, because once was enough. But I really hope that things would still go on as usual, as your happiness will always stay together with mine.

Memories might not leave us apart, but the present and the future would. Memories between us will always be in my mind as I do not know about yours. Maybe I was doing things too overly again and I’m really sorry about that. I really hope you could live a better life than before when you were always by my side, and I would really hope that things would go as your way and not mine.

I know you might be saying that I might be thinking too much, but if you look back to the past, how many times had you forgive me and how many times had I made huge mistakes on you. Humans will have to leave each other some day and living until today with you had delayed your departure time. I made mistake and I am not going to delay it anymore. Hope you could understand and although I know that you will always be my real brother in my heart and I do not know about me inside yours, but I was happy that I had you.

Life goes on without a doubt, the future, the path, the route, must be established now. It might be harder for you than me to do it, and therefore, moral support will always be given by me to you. I know life are hard at times but just always remember that I will always be by your side to walk thtough this hard times with you. Although you are not my real brother, but always remember, you had already been a part of my family in my heart.

Gay might be the word for me to have you, because the happiness of me to be with you all the time. People might be calling us gays but I was actually happy to hear that because gay means happy. I didn't take it as homos because I think I know you more than anyone could be.

I was very happy that I could call you "gor" all these time. Like what I said, if we are fated to meet again, and that would be the time we will be meeting each other again. Until then… take care and will always miss you, my beloved brother. (You know who you are, because you are the only person I always call by this name. )

Love,

Eu

A Cup of Water…

RELATIONSHIP OR FRIENDSHIP IS JUST LIKE A CUP OF WATER PUTTING UNDER A WATER TAB. BEFORE IT IS FULL, YOU FILL IT UP, AND WHEN IT OVERFLOWS, YOU OFF THE TAB SO IT WOULDN’T OVERFLOW, BUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN WHEN YOU OFF THE TAB FOR TOO LONG? IT DRIES UP SLOWLY AND SLOWLY AND slowly… and it turned empty again…

Everyone knows that I had a good relationship with my foster brother (from the previous posts), on how much I care for him, (and reminder, not gays, just brothers) and how much he used to care for me, how much we used to have fun together until everything split us up. Maybe people would always said that friends come and go, but definitely, this one would be something that I wouldn’t let go, because it has gained it preciousness in me.

I was easy at the first place, he wasn’t being busy with his work at the first place and we could still talk on the phone most of the time. But things start to get worst when he started concentrating on his job. Not only that he wouldn’t reply my message and busy with his work, waiting for his reply during my hard times will never happen, not like before.

Things might have changed and we might be adults. But I kept on sms-ing him, maybe to gain more of his attention so at least I have somebody to talk to regarding my feelings and thoughts. But seems like I on the tap water way too much, cracking the cup. Although I had understood it early, but seems like things have to be released. Tap water needed to be closed down to reduce the cracking, and let everything dry up. Because it had crack, therefore, there are no other method to fill any water in the cup anymore.

All I can do now is to let go and maybe give him some air, some life of his own and live my own life. It might be hard at the beginning for losing someone this precious, the time we had fun, the things that we might share to make each other feel better, and really, I wouldn’t love to stop this brotherhood between us, but I understand you. Therefore, I decided to let go, although you will be the best bro I had ever had, even better than my real bros, but still, things have to change.

Sleeping through the night and take it as a sweet dream, everything will be different with just a wake up call in the morning, living a life that wasn’t supposed to be, facing reality on the path it should be.

Take care and until we were fated to meet again… bro…

A New Year Celebration… Nothing Better Than a Life in a Village…

CHINESE NEW YEAR, A FESTIVAL CELEBRATED BY EVERY CHINESE ALL AROUND THE WORLD ON THE SAME DAY, AND WITH THIS YEAR’S VALENTINES TOGETHER, IT REALLY HAD BROUGHT A NEW AND BETTER YEAR TO BE CELEBRATED TOGETHER.

With Chinese New Year celebrated at a village known as Padang Serai, located in Kedah every year, it had brought the life of a village and the life of living back to the tradition, sooth from the stress of living in the city, having a fun time together with cousins only once a year. This is the time… of living back together with family and relatives… and living back the childhood…

My Newborn Cousins... This is Dahlia (The Model Queen)

and This is Ji Yan - the adventurer... beware, she will cry if you don't bring her around...

Steamboat during CNY - a must delicacy for the Chinese every Chinese New Year

The Old Style Laksa - selling through motorcycle, have you seen it before?

The Lion Dance - still freaking me out... but it is cute though...

The Real Life of Living in a Village...

Everything is planted by themselves...

The CNY Puppies.... born on the 1st day of the Tiger...

All 4 of you will definitely be a tiger when you grow up...

Wooden Houses in a Village... rarely seen anymore...

Family reunion dinner... (dad's side)

HUAT AR!!!!!!!!

Family picture (by group)...

Cousins having fun together... it was a HOT HOT Night!!

Hi Kinki...

The youngest among all cousins, he is 11 and I'm 21...

guess how many cousins do I have?? haha...

Happy Birthday Aunty Sally... don't say you look ugly.. you look nice here...

A new year, a new life, a new motive, a new target, a new person... Happy Chinese New Year to everyone...

P.S. All Pictures and Contents of this post are reserved Copyright ©Eu 2010

A New Year… An Older Year… But Living A Younger Life…

LIFE IS HARD TO BE UNDERSTOOD, FREEDOM IS THE WORD THAT EVERYONE NEEDS. BUT UNTIL WHEN CAN FREEDOM BE CONTROLLED BY ME?

Parents are being parents, can be understood where care and love is given by them. But in times, things shouldn’t go this way, as intruding the life of a young adult is no longer allowed, to give them freedom to grow their own wings and fly on their own. Parents could still care for them, but in a different way, and things should have changed when children gets older.

It might be a Chinese New Year this year for me and also a Chinese New Year to celebrate my 21st birthday this year, but seems like the more locks are added to my chain to avoid me from flying. I learnt a lot through the living outside and when it is time for me to fly, why would anyone stop me from doing so? Why wouldn’t a chance given to me to fly alone? And I know that parents will always be the guidance, but guidance doesn’t mean to listen and obey everything that parents said. The word guidance would be to give opinions and by accepting it or rejecting it, will always be our choice, and not by forcing.

Parents might be parents, but choice must always be with the children. Eras changing, technology improving, people evolving, time moving, and children growing. When time comes, humans must live the life of their own, although family is always important. Things have to change according to its way, and not by the thoughts of the past and leaving behind the present and the future. The past wouldn’t change the world, but the present and the future would as the world changes a person, and not a person who changes a world. Only a few selected people could do so, even for those who are the chosen one.

Therefore, please… please… I want my freedom, not to say to leave your son away and not coming back forever, but please let us think and do things ourselves. Opinions can be given, but to accept or not would always be our choice. You had your life, and it is time for me to live mine, and if possible, with yours, but still depends…

Mistakes...

PEOPLE MAKE MISTAKES, SO MANY MISTAKES IN LIFE UNTIL IT IS UNCOUNTABLE, AND EVERYONE DOES. THERE MIGHT BE SOMEONE WHO MIGHT LOOK WISDOM THAT DOESN’T MAKE MISTAKE, BUT IN REAL LIFE, ACTUALLY THEY MADE TONS OF MISTAKES IN ORDER TO GAIN THIS WISOM FOR NOT REPEATING THE SAME THING AGAIN, AND SO WILL EU…

It was my first week of work and it was a total disaster. I made myself a clown, I made my own mistake and I made everything bad. It was good at the beginning, but when workload starts to come day by day, I become a total freak. Until around evening, I started working unconsciously, all depending on my adrenaline and also a cup of coffee to run my body.

Workloads are coming in more and more everyday, perhaps it was because I was asking for more work at the first few days, but things are going haywire. I was so sad that I did a stupid mistake for not differentiating nicely on 2 companies that we actually deal with and giving out the wrong info to actually screw the whole company up. After that, of course, they screwed me up. But it was my mistake at the first place for not being able to confirm.

This wasn’t the only thing that I screwed up, but if the rest of it I could actually post it up here on this blog; I would be sued actually, because most of it is based on the privacy and policy of the company. That is why, just hope that I could actually learn from my mistakes, get over with the past mistakes and hope that there wouldn’t be anything more happening in the future, because I have had it already. It is time to work consciously at all time, even when I am very tired, but tiredness can be cured on the bed (and for those who understood me, I have insomnia and I did not really sleep for the whole week of work).

So, work hard now, not only to gain more knowledge, but also for a better future, because this will be the path of doing so. It is time to build our own roads, and not having others to build our road for us.

Good luck to all interns, and congrats to Gor for gaining a new love relationship and I hate you… haha…

Dreams in Reality…

NIGHTMARES CAN BE SPOOKY… BUT CAN IT FREAK AND SPOOK EU AT THE SAME TIME? INDEED IT CAN…

I came back from a great game of pool and football game yesterday night, reaching home at 4am, updated my blog at that moment, and finally, went to bed at 5am.

I was lying down on the bed, rolling over and over again, hoping that I would get to sleep. Listened to the morning prayers and I knew, insomnia had bugged me again. It was until the whole Morning Prayer is over, and only I fell asleep, into my dreams.

I was in a place, which looks familiar that would be my bedroom at home. Every room has a door and normally, while sleeping, a person would lock their door up, and so did I. I went to sleep on the bed, and when I suddenly woke up from sleeping, the door was open. I remembered I locked the door. Maybe somebody opened it, and so I locked it once again. And again, it opened. I was freaking out as everyone was sleeping. I walked downstairs and suddenly saw my mom preparing breakfast, and I told her the whole thing. She said that maybe there was somebody who tries to break into your room. Just go back to sleep. And so I went back and once again, I locked the door, and it happens again. It opened…

I quickly take my books and walked to college, as for my guess it was my final examination period. I walked and walked and walked, and came to a hall made out of bamboo, where I had been there a few times (in my dreams). It was an examination hall, located right in the middle of forest, with a staircase also made of bamboo, walking down to a small table where I would usually be studying there.

While walking passed the examination hall, I heard a little girl’s voice, speaking through the microphone, “a for elephant…. b for elephant…. c for elephant…. d for elephant…” I heard that voice and it indeed gave me goose bumps. I ran towards the little bamboo staircase and it became louder and louder, “e for elephant…. f for elephant….”

I couldn’t bear listening to it and I screamed, “StuXXd FXXking BiXXh…” I suddenly turned conscious as I was awake from my dream. My eyes were open, but the voice did not stop. It continued “g for elephant… h for elephant…” and I screamed once again, this time in reality, the vulgar language that I screamed in my dream, and it stopped.

I was sweating all over, and finally it stopped. The sun rise and finally everything was over. It wasn’t that the dream spooked me out, but instead, it was the voice of the girl that continued after I woke up from my dream. But rather, life goes on…

Dreams might only be happening in a person’s mind while the whole body is unconscious, but what does it mean when dreams came into reality? The answer is somewhere out there…

It happened to me, what about Eu?

Moral, Morale... things that should be done...

REMEMBER HOW MUCH PROFESSIONALISM IS BEING DISCUSSED? ON HOW “BEING NICE TO PEOPLE AND PEOPLE WILL BE NICE TO YOU”, JUST LIKE WHAT IS WRITTEN IN THE KARMA IN BUDDHIST? IT MIGHT HAPPEN…

I was at the saloon today, to get another hair cut, although I had just got one a few weeks ago. But due to facing new challenges and also a coming Chinese New Year, getting a hair cur again isn’t so bad after all.

I went to this saloon called Red in Wangsa Maju, (publicity is done here because they inspired me to do so), and it was a majority of guys stylist in this saloon, and only a female, but she did had her masculinity in her, and it is still a “her” of course. I doubt that because it was a Sunday, that is why they had so many customers, and I doubt that they had so many customers wasn’t only because it was only a weekend, but it was because of their ethical and professionalism which was hidden in them.

People might not notice or even realized things that might be good to them, instead would only remember all the bad things that had happened in their life. But today, they really inspired me to be a better person, a more ethical and professional person.

I waited in that saloon for 2 hours just to get a simpler haircut and indeed, I was bored. But definitely not with the patience that I had, one of the hairstylist actually came to me and smiled and say “could you please hold on another while, because we were quite busy right now, I'm really sorry for the inconvenience...”, in a very humble and slow voice. With this kind of attitude, it is impossible that any customer would resists of not getting a haircut there, true? Therefore, I waited and continued my observation.

Customers came barging into the shop, and each time a customer is here, they would tell the customer honestly that they would have to wait for a very long time because of the amount of customers who needed a makeover by them. Some of them nodded and waited patiently and some of them made appointment, and everything was deal professionally and of course with a very humble and soft voice, which doesn’t chase the customers away.

I was actually impressed on the way they handled customers. For PR students, remember mix motive on compromising with the customers, this was definitely the way it should be. They even had a customer who had made an appointment at 3 o’clock, and he waited until 5 o’clock to get his haircut. Now you know on how important professionalism and being ethical, and not lying to customers just to gain money would be.

Some shops might be thinking of only making money. This is a way of making money, in other words, it is chasing for money. But there will always be ways of making the money come to you, which is being professional. Therefore, work professionally, ethically, not for the sake of getting money, but for the sake of bridging the gap between the clients/customers with the shop itself, and this doesn’t only goes to businesses, but it goes to everyone, which include friends, families, relatives and etc.

Bond is always important, Relationship makes life easier and

Good Communication is always the word to do it.

CHEERS to the stylists…

~A Better Men~

I THOUGHT THAT LIFE WOULD BE MEANINGLESS WITHOUT YOU, AND SO THAT I THOUGHT MY LIFE WOULD ENDED UP BEING DEPRESSED WITHOUT YOU. I THOUGHT I WOULD STOP WRITING ABOUT YOU, BUT IT ALL TURNED OUT THE OPPOSITE WAY, MAYBE LIVING WITHOUT YOU MIGHT BE MY BIG MISTAKE RIGHT NOW, BUT LIVING BEHIND YOUR SHADOW, HAS NEVER BEEN A MISTAKE.

I was shopping all around this shopping mall two days ago, and I had always remembered that she had always turned up to be an image in my life. I remembered in the past when I had posted something mean to talk about her, making her feel bad, saying things that living within her shadow would bring miserable to my life.

As usual, I walked around the shopping mall, and again, her shadow popped up in my mind. I did not wondered this time on whether I should be sad or ignoring those images. But there is one thing that was reacted through my mind. I was smiling, when I saw a red colour dress hanging on a model. I had news that she was joining a modeling competition, and that straight away linked up to my mind.

I was happy, imagining her in that dress. She was pretty (and in fact she was all the time). It makes her look elegant in that dress itself, but there is one problem. I could not buy her that dress (understanding the life of a college student, budget is always the word). I was sad that I couldn’t purchase her that dress, but I was happy that she popped up in my imagination at that moment.

My first reaction was a smile, smiling not only on how pretty she will look, but also on how great of her to pursue her dreams at this instant. I was happy, and I walked away from that dress. Dreams can be a nightmare or a sweet dream, but this was definitely more than just a sweet day dream. Maybe in the coming days or months, I could buy her that dress, or maybe a better one. Hoping that she would be the one, and only one, wearing that red little dress.

Hereby wishing her good luck, all the best and hope her dreams come true by joining that competition, and would just like her to know that, no matter what happens, I would always support her, be by her side, cherish her every moment and also to protect her when things go wrong.

Good night and sweet dreams to Her, and to all of Eu out there…