Family… A Word That Everybody Could Feel……

WHEN YOU HAVE YOUR FAMILY, HAVING FUN TOGETHER, SITTING DOWN TOGETHER AND WATCHING TELEVISION TOGETHER, WON’T YOU FEEL HAPPY? BUT WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS MENTION SOMETHING ABOUT BREAKING UP A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE FAMILY WHEN THERE ARE KIDS OR PEOPLE OUTSIDE IN THE SOCIETY WHO NEEDS AND WANTS A REAL FAMILY WHEN THEY DO NOT HAVE ONE?

Indeed, another great day for me at home, hanging out with my family members, and also not to forget a new family member of mine, my cute little laptop. Although we did not went out, but sitting around at home doing things is also another great way of spending time together, especially on a weekend, where it should be known as family days (I put an “s” here because I meant both day of weekends as family day).

I was doing things just as usual, sitting down in front of my laptop, playing with the Internet and also some online and non-online games, changing computers around so that I could actually test on which one is better on which programs and etc. I was doing all these and indeed, kind of forgotten about something until my mom asked me to help her out. The thing that I forgot was to spend time with my family.

I went to the kitchen and I helped my mom to cooked curry fried rice, which came out… mmm… no comments on this one, but at least everyone finished their rice on their plate. She said that I should at least learn something before I further my studies in UK, in the future. I know I had to survive on Asian food to actually gain weight, but I don’t mind gaining weight with the Westerners’ food, as their portion is bigger, but I might not be able to accept their food at the first glance or first try of them. That is why I had to learn to cook, and if I succeed, I could at least earn some money by selling them off right? As a support for my euro trip. Haha. (Too much of day dreaming, so kids, wake up and stop day dreaming).

I had a great dinner after that and then my cousins came over to have fun, and this was the first time I got to look at my youngest cousin of all… I mean second youngest, just born and still fresh from the oven. She is 5 months old and a Malay, but she is as fair as a Chinese. You must have weird thoughts right? I’m a Chinese and a Malay cousin. And I bet your guesses are correct, and yes my aunty did get married to my uncle who is Malay. But no racist here alright, because all I am going to talk about is my cute little cousin.

She had great big eyes, wearing a pink colour shirt, and even when she doesn’t want to continue eating that banana that my dad fed her, she still looks cute rejecting them. How can children be so cute in every way, every direction or anything that they do? But I know something, bringing up a children is not cute at all. But looking at their faces would definitely bring your day up.

Family isn’t just about your parents or relatives, it is the people who you grew up with, the people who you share you loves with and the people you care about and concern about. Best friends and buddies are a part of your life, and therefore, indirectly, also a part of your family, because they work the same as every family member of yours do, and always remember something, blood relationship will never be important. The most important thing would be, what is written inside your heart, and those people who are in your heart, would always be a part of your family.

I've been to an orphanage before, and those kids were really living without their parents and their real family members. They would have to take care of themselves, and take care of each other. So, which part of them links to them as a family? Their blood relationship? No... Their thoughts of helping out each other? Maybe... The bond that tied them up to make them a family? Definitely. This is why, family doesn't need to come from blood relationship, but it comes from the heart of people who wants to make a relationship up, which makes it a family. Doesn't it?

~~Family Members are everywhere, it is just that Eu might not have noticed it~~

~Shopping Spree~

DID YOU REMEMBER WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU HAD FUN WHILE SHOPPING? BUT THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THINGS THAT WOULD BE DECIDING THE MOOD THAT YOU WILL BE HAVING ON THAT DAY, AND THAT WOULD BE THE PEOPLE AROUND…

I had my shopping spree at this great and grand shopping mall, and the first thing that I thought when I went in was to get my hair done, because my hair was as messy as a cat’s fur when after bath. I did not brought my wax, very obviously, and guess what I did. I went to a pharmacy where they actually sell hair wax. I opened the tester and took a whole lump of it and went to the bathroom to make my hair. But indeed, it was a bad hair day for me (read the previous post and you would understand).

It was quite hectic as me and Yvonne, a high school classmate and also the current course mate of mine, went shopping together. We bumped into Ting Huey a few times and also once on Calleen. But we did not talk much because everyone was busy shopping.

Remember how the other races actually stereotype Chinese as people who likes to count a lot especially things that regards on money. I think that would be true because me, as a Chinese, likes to do so. Me and Yvonne eventually walked the whole shopping mall, to survey on all the prices before purchasing. I bought some present for my buddy because I still owe him for his birthday, and that post will come after this because it is still kept a secret, another present for another friend, a pair of working pants, a formal shirt and I think that is all. Guess how much I had spent? 300 bucks, which included petrol for the car and etc.

But regardless on what happened, I was quite happy with the whole trip, because we met some very nice people and some not very nice people, who actually balanced up the whole emotion between both of us, shoppers. We went to a few stalls and we were actually searching for some kind of earring that Yvonne actually wanted but couldn’t find, and there were shop keepers who are go generous of directing us to other shops who actually sells this kind of earring when they do not sell it at their stall. I was quite impressed on the professionalism they had, even when they were only a small shop keeper. Look at their ethic, their morale and also the moral inside them, and this is what people should learn.

After that, we continued shopping and shopping and everything goes on and on. We walked around for a few times and there was even a shop that I went in for 4 times and still do not know the direction of that shop. Amazing right? Because it was huge, and who would actually remember all the setting for the shop lots on where it should be and etc. But I doubt that girls who had been there shopping would know everything.

Therefore, shopping isn’t really bad after all, especially for those who had bad experience in facing shop keepers. The only thing that you could do is to keep smiling when you se these shop keepers and they will learn their own lesson. Be ethic and be professional yourself as a shopper and these shop keepers would definitely be impressed by you, or maybe, they would actually give you a better and lower price when you purchase them. Who knows? They are the boss after all…

Act Professional as a Shopper and also a Shop Keeper, for the sake of your business and for the sake of Eu shoppers creating a bond with them.

(P.S. it brings you benefits.... and by the way, shopping isn't only just for women.).

A Life Threatening Night~~

ANY EXPERIENCE OF ALMOST GETTING KILLED AND AT THAT INSTANCE YOU ARE SAVED? JUST LIKE FALLING OFF FROM EARTH TO HELL AND THEN GOT PULLED BACK AGAIN TO EARTH JUST TO CONTINUE YOUR LIFE? EXTREME WASN’T IT? WASN’T SO…

I was shopping at a huge shopping mall in when it was supposed to be a great day for me because I bought many things, things that I should’ve bought a long time ago and make it a present for others. Spending more than 300 bucks that night and more than 10 hours walking around 2 shopping malls, saw many people and almost had my life killed when I sent the rest of my friends who went shopping with me back.

Maybe I was a little tired while driving, but I was definitely sure that I was very conscious at that moment. I was speeding at the right lane at a normal speed which was around 80km/h and this is when the bus turned into my lane of driving WITHOUT signal. I almost bang into the bus and almost got myself killed and also everyone inside the bus. Imagine if I were to bang that bus, and imagine on how many would I had killed at that moment? I went on with an emergency break, and I wasn’t only a break. The grip slipped off and the whole car went slipping off. If the grip wasn’t good enough, I would definitely be dead by now.

Isn’t this story like almost getting killed and then being saved back to life, and therefore to let you continue a better life? Just like the movies right? But this is real life. It has the same feeling of bungee jumping where a person jumps from earth, heading to hell and being pulled back the instance it reaches the hell’s door. Therefore, people, please PLEASE drive safely, and drive with a rationale and mature mind. If not, you be killing somebody on the road.

Think before you act… and even if you don’t think about yourself, think about those who cares about Eu.

Black or White?

Answer a Question… A or B... WRONG answer….

Life is a choice, right? From buying shoes until the way of a person chooses a new hairstyle. But there is something that people do not know which is where people choose friends, on who to make it be with and who is not.

It has always been told that Asians are more into group working which is also known as collectivism rather than the Westerners where they would be more to individualism. But being Asians, I would rather think that they are too stuck into their own groups where being individualistic should also be something that should be done. They always mentioned that there is no “I” in a team, but rather, I would think that, having an “I” in a team, doesn’t mean “me” myself, but rather “individualistic”.

Individualistic is where a person could excel their dreams and hopes without being pulled down by the team. Do you know that a person can pull down the whole team and so does a team, which can bring down a person. But, some people are just being typically stupid where they think that they would die without their friends.

I have a situation here where I was always thinking on whether I am the important ones or not. I know living in a group is not my thing, when I always do things individually, but friends are still being friends where we can still have gang, and there is one problem with the gang I am having right now.

I am with a bunch of friends known as X, Y and Z and I am seriously having problems on understanding them. I know X and Y before Z came joining into this gang. But after a while, there came a few conflicts between Z and X and this is not the main point. The main point is why was I the 1 being left out from the group? Let me give you an example. Sometimes, this X, Y and Z would be calling me for no reason, telling me things that they had just thought and then told me that they missed me and etc. There are also times where all three of them could go out together without me, and if I have said that I do not have time and etc, they would still leave without me. Fine. But here comes the problem. When Z said that he couldn’t go out with us, X and Y just said that they wouldn’t come either if Z doesn’t want to come.

So, what is this all about? Choosing the people on who to come out with? Or are you choosing handbags. I am seriously confused here on whether all of you are really good and being nice to me, or just acting and faking around. If ya’ll would just like to act and fake around, just talk to me right on my face. I wouldn’t mind and I would just walk away and quit from the gang.

Life isn’t about acting. We are not actor and actress and we are just normal humans. If ya’ll would think that I am stupid to fall for this, think twice. Humans have emotions and heart, and always remember something. Time is money, and time is gold. If ya’ll would do all these kind of shit to me, then ya’ll better watch out because I am not going to tolerate things anymore and these are not the only things that have happened. There are some more if you would want me to list it out all for you.

If life is going to be like this, choosing my appearance within your life, then I would rather not appear in your life. I know that it wouldn’t be a waste of your time because ya’ll are having fun, but it would be a waste of my time. We are all adults, and everything can be talked through, and living alone isn’t bad, at least I would do things peacefully… being INDIVIDUALISTIC!!

Supper…. HmmMmm..

PEOPLE HAD BEEN SAYING THAT SUPPERS ARE BAD FOR HEALTH. BUT IF YOU LOOK AT THE OTHER WAY ROUND, IT BRINGS A POSITIVE SIDE MENTALLY. THEREFORE, IS IT GOOD OR BAD?

Supper, a phrase that would be used by most of the people, especially youngsters nowadays where they would be meeting up at night, for a drink or maybe a chat together with friends. But parents had always been nagging all around, “remember to not come back late…”, “Supper is bad for health… just take a look at your dad, do you want to have a belly like him someday?” and of course the answer would be “no”.

But there are some things about supper that most of the youngsters do nowadays. Rather than eating and drinking all the time, it is the time for youngsters to actually get to know each other in a better way, the relaxed way, where they could be sitting down, chit chatting all night long, releasing stress, and getting tired for work or class the next morning. But this is the so called night life of us.

Getting better in relationship, tying up a closer band between friends or maybe families and relatives, and also building up a person’s network are mostly gained from supper. Chit chatting together, exchanging experience is also a method contributing to the thoughts and minds of the people nowadays for their job, because this is the time and this is the place where they could actually gain more thoughts and mental creativity to boost up their job.

Therefore, supper can be a good thing, which might be turning into an era where it brings health to a person’s life (except for the not getting enough sleep at night). So, if Eu want to build up your own network, or to get to know or understand more about people, the easiest way would be through supper, as anything could be talked about, chatted about without any boundaries. So, supper… anyone?

JUST A LITTLE BIT...

JUST A BIT MORE ON WHAT WE DID BEFORE AND AFTER EXAMS...

3 Pictures below, does it look familiar??

A little walk and play at Wangsa XXX (name undisclosed) before finals..

Dinner at Damansara... AFTER EXAM!! WOOHOO!!

Pictures are meant to be a lane of memory, but things are meant to be changed.

Hope everyone have fun with their hols and also their internship.

Eu will see ya'll, when time comes...

*cheers*

a LITTLE joke~~

I WAS AT THE CURVE YESTERDAY AND REMEMBER ON THE PREVIOUS POST, I TALKED ABOUT ME HAVING DINNER WITH BIRTHDAY GIRL, BUT SOMETHING SHORT BUT FUNNY HAPPENED BETWEEN ME AND WALLACE…

Colour of Characters:
Ryan
Wallace
Me
Machine

Story as the following:

All of us had finished out dinner from XXX (venue censored as not doing any publicity) at the Curve, and we were all heading towards the car park. When we were at the car park, I and Wallace were lining up for the machine where we pay our parking ticket. We were very smart on choosing the one without people lining up and the other one which is next to it, was full with queue. This was what happened.

Ryan: ---- Cannot use ar!!! What to do now –- machine!! (P.S. "---" are foul languages that are censored)

Me: go and line up to the next machine la…

And then Wallace walked up.

Wallace: Paid already ar? (directed to Ryan and Ryan just walked away, ignoring Wallace).

Me: Spoil already la…

Wallace: ….

Me: (Hand Itchy… and pressed the button and asked for assistance… the button is available at all machines everywhere right? And the machine started talking. Me and Wallace looked at each other).

Machine: Hello, ada ape yang boleh saya bantu? (Eng translation: Hi, how may I help you).

Me & Wallace: … (both of us kept quiet and I pressed the “help” button the second time).

Machine: Ade ape yang boleh saya bantu? Hello? Hello? Ade ape yang boleh saya bantu?
(eng translation: is there anything that I can help you? Hello? Hello? Is there anything that I can help you?)

Wallace: Sudah rosak (with his clubbing and cheeky action…. Eng translation: it spoilt)

Machine: ooo… boleh bayar dekat kaunter di luar ke? Mesin bayar sudah rosak. (eng translation: ooo… can you please pay at the counter ourside? This machine spoilt).

Wallace and Me: OK (in a very cheeky and humble voice)…

And then both of us continued laughing nonstop...

At first, I knew that the machine was spoilt, and even when I told Wallace, he would still want to shaft the card into the machine. The best part was, we knew that there was a second machine, just right beside, and also a CCTV hanging on the wall, and we still kept quiet and did stupid stuff, but at least it was fun and we were happy, and we can even do in the car park. Don’t take us wrong, but this is the life of a young soul.

Take Life Young… Think Young... Live Young…

Life… ended with a Comma,,,,,

HUMANS ALWAYS END THEIR LIFE IN A FULLSTOP EVERYDAY, IN ORDER TO START A NEW PARAGRAPH EACH DAY. BUT THERE ARE PEOPLE, WHO ENDED THEIR LIFE, SOMETIMES, IN A COMMA, BECAUSE LIFE CANNOT BE FINISHED WITH A FULLSTOP AT THE END OF IT.

Final examination for the semester ended yesterday, and finally, all papers are finished and almost all of the papers were killed by me, but maybe not all, just like a group of mafias killing each other, and there will definitely be someone that might be killed from each sides, which also happened to us, where someone from our side might have been killed by our papers.

Maybe I wasn’t killed by all of the papers, I think, but these papers definitely had killed my body. I had been sick for 4 days, all not because of the weather only, but also because of the studies that are needed, and due to the lack of time, all of us do not get enough sleep. All of the exams in the time table are all back to back, and all of these are over right now, and it is time to reenergize our body.

Right after our exams, I went back to get a good night sleep, and then I just got 3 hours of sleep, but never mind, because it is our plan to go out for a group dinner at night. While I was still sleeping, a person sms-ed me and suddenly, Yit Phing asked on whether I am ready to go or not, because I was supposed to follow her car for dinner, and within 15 minutes I prepared everything and started my journey to our dinner’s venue.

We reached and the rest have not, so we went in to walk around, and it was a decoration of a market, the French market, and all of us walked around to see what can be eaten inside the restaurant. All of us ordered things until we could not finished everything, and the ginger beer that I drank was nice, with other foods for instance Rosti, pasta and also dessert, and all together, it was delicious. And by the way, HAPPY BIRTDAY Yit Phing!!!

We went straight back home after a filling dinner and then had a good night rest to continue reenergizing our body. Therefore, it is time to continue sleeping… good Night people….

Loneliness…. (Part 3)

HUMANS CAN BE LONELY AT TIMES, MAYBE FOR A MOMENT, OR MAYBE FOR A LONG PERIOD. BUT THERE ARE TIMES WHEN PEOPLE GETS LONELY, AND RATHER THAN TAKING ACTION TO CURE THAT LONELINESS, THEY TEND TO KEEP IT INSIDE, AS A PART OF THEMSELVES...

Humans are unique, aren’t they, especially men, where they could have the mindset of being masculinity in them until they really forgot what the people around them are all about. One of my friend told me this before, “You will only keep the sad things to yourself, and cherish others as much as you can,” and from there, I could understand that, deep down in everyone’s heart, there is a person, hiding within darkness, hidden with loneliness.

I was lying down on the bed trying to get to sleep and as you can see where I couldn’t, and I suddenly thought of a person, a friend, a brother of mine, where he could cherish everyone’s heart up, with the smiles on his face, with the jokes from his mouth, with a lit and burn into everyone’s heart. But I wonder, what were his thoughts? Was he this cheerful all the time? Or is it just a hidden deep down the black and dark heart?

It must have sounded weird on why did I talk about another men, but in the fact, he is my brother, although he is not my real brother, but he is definitely a very close and caring foster brother. But I was still wondering, every time I see him, all he has is a smile on his face, but there were some time that I had caught him on his face that he was lonely. It wasn’t the looks of having problems; it was just a look that shows his loneliness in his heart. That is why I was thinking, although I am a guy myself, but I do ask these kinds of question, does the word "masculinity" shows that men shouldn’t talk to others about their emotions, and the only thing is to cherish themselves and others up? Not even to their closest friend or best buddies? Or does it feel weird talking something which is deep down from the heart to another man?

I know that not every men would act like this, but I do think that all these are just a wrong perception and if possible, it would be the time to change and take this perception away, because there are so many people outside there who actually cares, it is just that although the feeling doesn’t feel right at the first place, it will sooner or later. Although things might not change now, but things might change later, as closer bonds would help to build up a better relationship, and one of them is by telling out their heart to others as others would understand more about you, bridging the gap between friends and families. If not, the consequences might end up with maybe… Depression?

Don’t feel shy, just go for it, because there if nothing to be shy about. If you think that being masculinity can solve every problem, then this would also be the problem, deep down in a person’s heart that can be solved. Just go for it, as a small effort of changes would turn your life into another dimension that you might have not discovered.

Do it, for a new life, for a new Eu…..

Trespass Privacy...

EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN PRIVACY AND THERE ARE PEOPLE OUTSIDE THERE WHO JUST DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO RESPECT ON OTHER PEOPLE’S PRIVACY, AND THAT IS WHY THE LAW “INVASION OF PRIVACY” HAD BEEN MADE UP. WHY CAN’T PEOPLE JUST RESPECT OTHER PEOPLE’S PRIVACY?

I was having fun in a concert, shouting and screaming which was one of the best thing ever after finishing another exam paper of mine today, and I thought I could have a good night rest. But 2 hours later, the concert wasn’t finished yet, and then it disappeared, and I woke up from my dream finding out that there is somebody whom I do not know had sms-ed me and woke me up from my dream, thought that they could actually flirt with me.

I did asked her on her details, on what is her name and the funny part was, no matter what question I asked her, she only replied with her name. Finally, she understood me on how did she obtained my number and I was shock that the number that she got from was from a person that I do not know, and this raises a question on my head. How many people in this world are actually having my number? I was seriously upset that people just doesn’t know on how to keep other people’s privacy to themselves.

When a person gives another person their number, is not only because that they are friends, but also because that they trusted them at the same time. Giving out their phone number to others is seriously a mistake and if that person was found out, what trust do they have left? Isn’t just like invading a place which places a sign of “no trespasser” on the fence and still trespass that area? No wonder they always put, will shoot to death as their sign board.

Therefore, please people, respect people’s privacy. If you really wanted to give the other person the owner’s phone number, please do ask for their permission first, as it would have hurt the owner, not only in terms of privacy, but also in terms of their reputation, as it shows like they are so cheap to be accepted by everyone. It is true that humans are made not to hate other humans, but invading into a person’s area is still a mistake as everyone has their own privacy. YOU WOULDN'T WANT OTHERS TO DO THE SAME TO YOU........ RIGHT??

~~Either You Kill Me, or I’ll Kill YOU~~

IMAGINE HOW EXAMINATIONS CAN BE TORMENTING PEOPLE, IN TERMS OF SOUL AND MIND, AND ALSO PHYSICALLY? ESPECIALLY WHEN A PERSON IS STUDYING IN A HIGHER LEVEL, WHEREBY, THE HIGHER LEVEL YOU GO, THE TOUGHER IT WOULD BE. BUT THERE IS ALWAYS A QUESTION TO BE ASKED. “WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO TEST THEIR OWN MEMORIES AND KNOWLEDGE, WHEN ALL HUMANS WANTED WAS ONLY TO GAIN KNOWLEDGE? IS THIS A SET-UP CHALLENGE FOR HUMANS THEMSELVES, OR IS THE CREATOR OF “EXAMINATION” HAVING FUN TORTURING HUMAN?” I WONDER…

I had my second examination paper today, which was known as Statistical for Communication, and in where, it was a killer paper because during my diploma studies, the management totally ignored any mathematical subject in our course, and therefore, after two years of studies without mathematics, and definitely, for a normal human who doesn’t revise on mathematics would forget on how to play with mathematics, not to say on the using of calculator as a part of it.

I still wonder why, do people really having fun on torturing others, especially the younger ones? I thought all humans wanted was only was to gain more knowledge and therefore to take up more challenges in life, and don’t they know that, not everyone in this world have such a talent of reading and reading and reading over and over and over again to actually remember those things that might be coming out in examinations. Everyone is different and unique, and why do they still want to test us, students like that? If it is for the younger ones and if they could understand this, wouldn’t it be known as child abuse?

But seriously, not everyone could reach to the limit, because everyone is unique with their own different talents. Some might be good in studies, but not all and all everyone in this world thought would be that, studies is so important to get a god job but not your talent. Therefore, you need to study a lot, and gain more knowledge, and prove it with your examination result in order to get a better job. And trust me, when you are out there in the industry, although the first impression is always on your results, and if the only thing you knew was only to study, you will never pass through your probation period.

But remember that I had mentioned that humans take challenges in life, and maybe this would be one of the challenges in my life, and therefore, it is sad to say that, life still has to go on, and humans would still continue to take examination until a certain time where they think that they are good enough to manage things and there, examinations would run out of their way, while challenges would be lining up for them...

P.S. Good luck to those that are facing their final examinations…

Running away… Never the Answer….

THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS IN LIFE THAT HUMANS MUST ALWAYS FACE, AND RUNNING AWAY HAD ALWAYS BEEN THE ANSWER, BY TELLING OTHERS “NO WORRIES, TIME HEALS EVERYTHING…” AND THAT IS WHAT YOU THINK, JUST BECAUSE YOU HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT, DOESN’T MEAN THAT THINGS STILL DOESN’T GO ON. WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THAT MEMORY COMES BACK ONE DAY AND YOU WOULD STILL HAVE TO FACE IT NO MATTER HOW. THEREFORE, RUNNING HAS NEVER BEEN THE ANSWER FOR EVERYTHING AND TIME IS NOT THE CURE FOR EVERYTHING.

Running, just like the word is saying, getting away from what is fated to happen, and from what had happened, had always been the answer for most of the people that had been facing problems. Just like some ignorant manufacturers in the market, where their products came up with problems and all they did was to cover and cover and cover, and so, isn’t that running away from the fact that it had happened?

Things in life cannot be measured nor being predicted, maybe 2012 can be predicted, but what can be done? Preparation to face such problems, or finding a cure for the problem before it happens? People had always been saying that “prevention is better than cure”, but if something cannot be prevented, therefore, cure it before it happens.

But there are still some people that acted smart where they think they can solve a problem, where in they couldn’t do anything about that problem but worsen it, but at least they did try to make things worst, and there is an effort there, better than those who are standing there doing nothing, and just watching from the side, just like when an accident occur, all everyone could do was just to stand beside, pointing fingers at others and then leave those victim alone, inside danger. If these people can at least so something to give out a helping hand, maybe that victim would have survived, but just as humans being human, selfish.

On the contrary, we still can’t ignore those who had helped, but regardless on how much they helped, all they would want to do was to change and help out, but if there were still people who don’t want to listen to advices, and all that can be said was, to leave it and go, because it is pointless to persuade when there is no effort being made for that victim. But regardless, at least it would make you think that, at least I offered something.

Some humans are still being humans, being stone headed, but these are their attitude, and we will not be able to change them within a night, and things have to be done slowly, day by day, just like the Chinese idiom says, “shaping a steel rod into a piece of needle”. But always remember, running away from problems had never been the answer for everything that is happening right now in your life, in our life, in the place we are living right now and solving it is always the best way to answer these problems, regardless on whether the ending would be a happily ever after or a sadistic ending.

Therefore, DON'T run away from problems, instead, RUN towards a better future, RUN towards a better answer, and RUN towards a better life as life is always unpredictable… and this is the fun part of living, isn't it?

Jealousy, The Best Policy?

ENVY IS ALWAYS THE BETTER WORD FOR JEALOUSY, BUT WHY DO PEOPLE GET JEALOUS? IS IT BECAUSE WHEN SOMEBODY STOLE THEIR PROPERTIES OR SOMETHING THEY HAD OR IS IT WHEN SOMEBODY HAD SOMETHING THAT YOU HAD ALWAYS WANTED BUT YOU DO NOT? THINGS MIGHT BE AS EASY AS YOU THINK, BUT INSIDE THE WORD JEALOUSY, IT CONTAINS LOTS OF MEANING BEHIND A PERSON’S MIND, A PERSON’S THOUGHT, WHICH MAKES THAT HUMAN HUMANE.

I received a call today, a call from my friend that, that I will known him as X here in this post, he told me about his jealousy towards his friends, not to say like being a crush or a couple, but just a very normal friend.

X had always been going with his friends, all the time, since het met his buddies a few months back, but due to some unavoidable problems, they were meant to split up, (they were all guys la, but they all split up), and then here comes the present story. After he was split up with his buddies, he has got another new bunch of friends, consists of girls, and they had also been going out with him, playing with him, working with him, and everything you could think off which had built a very close bond between both of them, until a very close friend of him joined into this gang.

It was also one of his buddies who had joined this group of friends, but things had change, X slowly got ignored by his friends, got ditched by his friends and X had also been left out by his friends where so many things that they did before, had gone in just a moment. Maybe things should be the way it should be, or maybe things should be the way it had been before his friend came into his group of friends, and this is where the envy begins.

Because things had gotten out of hand, which was not expected, X started to got envy of his best friend on what had happened, and the only thing that could be done right now is to leave it alone, without touch, because firstly, it is his best friend, what can he do, and secondly, that bunch of people are X’s gang, and all he can do now is just to sit and watch, and at the same time, to join in, but really without the heart of joining in anymore.

X wanted to leave but he couldn’t because currently, these were the only people that were that close with him and if he joined in into another group of people in a sudden, what would both of the groups think about this men? A person who is not serious is friendship? Or is he just playing with people’s thought and mind? and the only thing that I would say about this would be, to look forward on what is happening to you right now, because this jealousy doesn’t happen to everyone, so enjoy it? And definitely, you will learn something more precious than anyone outside do, because it might lead you to a level where you would be able to appreciate things more before it was taken away from you….

This is how jealousy will end up... don't stop jealousing... but appreciate it inside your heart, alright??

P.S. you owe me a dinner… because you didn’t give me a good night sleep…. Ish… you know who you are….

What is a Human’s life?

A PERSON CAN HAVE A LOT OF PROBLEMS IN A DAY ITSELF, AND SEEMS LIKE PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS PEOPLE, THINGS TEND TO GET OVER AND THINGS TEND TO BE FORGIVEN, ALTHOUGH THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT’S COULD NOT BE FORGIVEN IN LIFE, BUT LIFE STILL HAS TO GO ON, MAYBE WITHOUT THEM, WITHOUT THESE PEOPLE, BUT MAYBE WITH OTHER PEOPLE, OTHER TRUSTABLE PEOPLE…

I realized that people tend to rely on each other. No matter how quiet you are, no matter how noisy you are, no matter how naughty or no matter how nice you are, people still rely on each other, on the trust and the bond between each other.

There are so many movies outside there right now that talks about the bonding of not only family, but also a bonding of friendship, a bonding of the people around you, and also the uniqueness of each person you met in your life, bringing more colours into your life and therefore making your life full with colour, maybe making it cheerful, or making it miserable, but it is all still part of life, where I did had mine, but that was in the past.

Back in the place I were, everything was so colourful, especially with the people I met, everyone were so true hearted. But in here, everyone is so untruthful; everyone is wearing a mask on a mask. Just like a quotation from my friend, “a group of 20 has a behavior of 200.” Is this what the city really is? I am seriously confused and I seriously do not understand about it. Why do humans have to be this way and not the way we were supposed to be? We were taught on how to be ethical in school since young, but why can’t we do that? Seriously, humans have to change for the sake of themselves, humans.

Before I moved here, I though I totally understand on how humans live, as the life in the place I previously was, was really a dazzling place where humans are treated as humans, but rather, in this place I am right now, humans are treated in different categories and also in different level. So, what are humans? Organism which can be categorize into levels on who does what? We are all in the same scientific family, but due to the thoughts of people, the powerful people are able to manipulate these people to be as the people to work for them, which cause a conflict of human, and therefore, I still do not understand until today, on why do humans have to work that way.

Maybe things are still not under my understanding or maybe did I analyze too much on things that is ignored by the people because they think that this is what the way it should be. But be aware that, things might change someday…. Someday… and hope that this someday… would be the day by the Walk With Eu…

Let Walk With Eu Walks You To Your Future...

Regret or Not?

IMAGINE IF SOMEBODY DID SOMETHING THAT THEY LIKED AND THEY DID REGRET ON WHAT THEY WERE DOING, LIKE TAKING DRUGS OR SMOKING? AND IMAGINE IF THERE IS SOMETHING THAT IS FORCED TO BE DONE WITHOUT THE VOLUNTEER OR LIKING FOR THAT PERSON, HOW WOULD YOU FEEL? AND YOU WOULD HAVE TO DO IT BEFORE THE DEADLINE WITHOUT FAIL.

I had my first paper of examination today, and it was a law paper. I studied for four days in which I studies day and night, without fail, sleeping and waking up early, and prepared for my exam. Once I was inside the examination hall, I was shock that those questions came out, maybe as expected but one thing is that, there are so many things to be written and I doubt that nobody could finished that paper in time. But regardless of what happened, it had passed and nobody can change the fact of what will be happening in the future when the results is out, just like a human, which could only grow older, but not younger.

But one thing was, remember the previous post I posted where I was disappointed, it had actually diverted my concentration on my exam to this problem and I did told myself to concentrate, but I couldn’t as this problem is a major problem for me. But whatever, I did manage to concentrate when the invigilator told us that there were only 30 minutes left. Although I could not finish that paper in time, but I think I am quite satisfy with the answers that I had written.

But regardless, things that had happened will not change, but things that are happening right now will change the future. Therefore, the future is always in our hands; make the right decision or choices in life to lead to a better future. Hope that I could really get good grades for my exam. Pray Hard!! Study Hard!!! Play Hard!!! Because remember, "All work and no play makes Eu a dull Person"....

Human Betrayal…

PEOPLE ALWAYS ACT SMART, BECAUSE THEY THINK THAT ALL THEY ARE DOING NOW ARE THE RIGHTS THINGS THAT SHOULD BE DONE. IF YOU ASK A THIEF, IS STEALING ALRIGHT, OF COURSE THEY WILL SAY THAT IT IS ALRIGHT BECAUSE THEY DO NOT THINK THAT IT IS WRONG, AS LONG AS THEY ARE HAPPY… THIS GOES THE SAME TO EVERY HUMAN, WHERE THINGS LIKE THAT ARE MADE UNCONSCIOUS IF THAT PERSON DO NOT TURNED IT INTO A CONSCIOUS.

I was disappointed with the people I trusted, as I have told them things that should not be done, but what they did was not to listen to me. I tried to help them but all they did was to backstab me and did not do what I told them to do. I know it wasn’t my rights to ask them to do so and forth, but those properties are mine where I sacrificed my property to be a part of their life, to help them improve their life, and all they did was taking it for granted. Not only did I give my properties out, but I also did mention to not tell anyone about this. ARE YOU PEOPLE DEAF OR BLIND!!!!!!!!!!!

I sweat to myself that this would be the last time I would do this to them and the next time would be either you do it yourself or I will be doing it orally, no more black and white given. Because all the trust that was given was lost, and how do I feel? Not important because of people can just betray my trust or do you think that if you do so, I would say, “no worries la, small problem only…” and then you are wrong. Maybe those would be coming out from my mouth but those aren’t the real things that I am thinking in my heart.

It really hurt because my properties was being given to others without my concern in which that I had told that my properties are not to be given out, and so they did not listen, because of what? I’m a forgiving person, and then you must be thinking too much. Remember this, looks can be deceiving. There might not be a look on my face, but what is deep under my heart, only I knew about it.

I gave trust and people betrayed it, so who will I give this trust to in the future? Nobody. The reason that I gave out my property and actually asked to not give out my property is because of there were things happened to you, I would be able to be responsible. But if things were to happen to those whom you people gave my properties to, who will be responsible for this action? Until the end, all the blames will be pushed on me while I am not the one who is responsible to give out my properties. People… Think Before You Act!!!!

And seriously I’m VERY VERY VERY DISAPPOINTED with the person who did this to me, although I still do not know who, but those trust towards people, and I did mean everyone, had vanished, and therefore, there will not be any trust anymore. The next time anyone needed help from me, all I would say is to get it from others, because I would not do so anymore, sacrificing for others and not getting back with just a small little favour.

A Letter for You...

MAYBE THINGS MIGHT NOT GO AS WE WANT….BUT DEFINITELY, IT WAS THE BEST MEMORY EVER.

私の恋人:

Maybe you wouldn’t know that actually I do read your blog every time you have a new update on your blog, to get to know more about you, to understand more about you, and therefore to get to a closer relationship with you. Therefore, Sorry for being a stalker and Thank You for letting me understand more about you.

I know that you are sad and maybe you mentioned that you should have stopped earlier for giving me so much hope, I’m Sorry for being such a geek not to let you continue with this. Because you did not stopped from giving me a chance to get to know you, because you did not stop from letting me loving you, and therefore, Thank You. If you had stopped back than, I would not have knew that I could love somebody so much. Thank You again.

I know how much you hate getting hurt and how much of hurt you have gotten from your previous love, and that is why I would like to say Sorry for doing so, for letting you remembering your past love and make your hurt more, but I would also like to say Thank You for letting out those past for me to love you more.

I know how much you would still want us to be friends, but of course, we would always be friends and if there were any possibility in the future that I could love you back, I would definitely do so. But, I would like to say Sorry for making you such a hard time, not being a help in your life, and brings more burden to your life. But Thank You for always being by my side when I needed you, to tell you my sorrow and happiness.

I do not mind on calling you anytime any day, texting you anytime any day, singing for you anytime any day, caring for you anytime any day, being a clown for you anytime any day, and cherish your whole life anytime any day, because everything is worth to be done, for you. Time is not wasted on you, but rather to be used on you, on the proper and right way, to bring more smiles to you, more colours to your life, and that why I am here, to cherish you every moment. But, I would like to say I’m Sorry for taking up so much of your time just for me, even when you were working, when your phone is down, and when you were busy with your friends and Thank You for doing so.

There was pain in my heart, that I wouldn’t lie to you. But if I could, I would rather to have this pain all my life, to support you from the back, even though we are just only friends, for today, for tomorrow, or maybe forever, those pain were the best memories before I take another step into my adulthood. (By the way, I’ll be 21 d… that is why I’m stepping into adulthood… haha… old d la). I would do things to cherish your life up, be your shoulder when you needed it, and be your supporter from the back, just like the people working behind the scene in a concert, working for the singer without being credited, and I would definitely do that for… you…

Just to hope that you will still continue to share your problems with me and I will continue sharing my happiness with you...

Sorry for making you feel this way, but Thank You for making me feel this way.

愛：
俺

P.S. please don't feel sad or guilty, cause i wanna se you happy always.... and sorry for me being a jerk...

A failure to “Never Try Never Know”

NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY SOMETIMES, THINGS THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN WILL NEVER HAPPEN. ALTHOUGH A PERSON MIGHT BE THINKING THAT THINGS MIGHT CHANGE IF I TRY HARDER, BUT UNTIL THE END, IT STILL LIES TO THE OPPOSITE SIDE.

I tried to forget about a person in my life, forget that I had once had a feeling towards her, and I tried hard on everything I could just not to remember about her. But things seemed to be taking place in the wrong way, and this was what happened.

I was at the night club 2 nights ago, and while I was having fun during the best time of the club, with the best songs, with the best DJs in the house and also with the best drinks and best crowds on the floor, everything seems so right just until some image of her popped up in my mind. It just seems that I just couldn’t get rid of her in my mind, and things have changed since then, the crowd was having their own fun while I was sitting down on the couch, doing what I should not be doing.

If I was to take her as only a friend after everything, things like that wouldn’t happen, images wouldn’t be popping up and I wouldn’t feel sad. Maybe I tried to hard just to forget about her, which was a bad thing.

The problem on why her imaged has suddenly popped up was because previously when there was once where I went for club, I was on the phone with her and she felt sad. The only thing I regretted was that I did not spent more time with her on the phone to ease her sadness, whilst, she asked me to have more fun and all I did was to listen to her. So, am I stupid or what?

Things might have been different now, as she has her dreams and I had mine. But what are the ways of forgetting about this love, I think, only time has the answer.