HALLOWEEN!!!??!!

LIFE STARTS WHEN DAWN APPEARS. PUNPKINS WITH EVIL LOOKS SPITTING OUT FIRE, KNOCKING INTO EVERY DOORSTEP IT COULD SEE, ASKING FOR……..Trick or Treat??

It is Halloween once again and on this coming Saturday will be my 20th Halloween since I was born. I wonder how it will be this year. Planning has been up, pumpkins had been carved, costumes had been rented but there are still so much more to do, especially buying sweets to actually treat kids. But I was definitely one of them 10 years ago, asking for sweets from relatives as this event is not really that accepted in the norm of Malaysia. But whatever, the most important is to have fun and to have sweets.

But this year’s Halloween will be a little different as everything will be celebrated through night clubs. A whole bunch of us will be meeting up in the club, celebrating Halloween together by drinking, by wearing spooky costumes, by performance and many more. But guess what, it is organized by my dear “brother” Wallace and it will definitely be a success tomorrow night. Just hope that that there is no one who is actually drinking blood.

But no matter what, lets recall a little bit on how did Halloween came by. It is usually celebrated on the 31st of October every year. This day is often associated with the colour of black and orange, and it is strongly associated with symbols like jack-o’-lantern. It’s origin was through an ancient festival known as Samhain (pronounced as sow-in or sau-an) which derived from the Old Irish and it roughly means the “summer’s end” in which it means to celebrate the end of the “lighter half” and the beginning of the “darker half” which is also known as the “Celtic New Year”. The celebration has some elements of a festival of the dead where the Celts believed that the border between this world and the other world became thin and allowing spirits to come through. Therefore, it is believed that the need to ward off harmful spirits is the need to wearing costumes and masks as to disguise oneself as a harmful spirit and thus avoid harm. But it is different in Scotland where spirits were impersonated by young men dressed in white with masks, veiled or blackened faces.

Bonfires (a large, controlled outdoor fire. The word is a contraction of “bone fire”. The practice is believed to derive from the Celtic festival of Samhain when animal bones were burnt to ward off evil spirits.) played a large role in this festive where all other fires were doused and each home lit their hearth from the bonfire. The bones of slaughtered livestock were cast into its flames. Sometimes two bonfires would be built side-by-side, and people and their livestock would walk between them as a cleansing ritual. Another common practice was divination, which often involved the use of food and drink.

But no matter how bad the reality earth got invaded by spirits and everything, we still celebrate it. Rather than saying that it is a bad day for people to actually come out without costume, why not we say that it is a time where people could actually get together, know each other more and become closer towards each other. So, have fun during Halloween, and happy HaLlOwEeN!! Haha…

Love…

Is holding hands considered as love? Is kissing considered as love? Is having feelings towards another person considered as love? Or is it that taking care of a person is being considered as love?

Confusion is happening within me, loving somebody but did not told her that I want to be with her. Is it that I am being selfish for keeping everything to myself? Is it that I do not have the guts to actually tell her? Or is it caused by other factors?

I did not know. But every time when it this word is spooking around me, confusion within me happens. Wanted to tell her, wanted to hold her close to me, wanted to do things together with her, but thoughts has always been popping up into my mind. Questions here, questions there.

I wish that i could do things for you, sing for you, walk with you, sending you to everywhere you want to go... to be with you all the time, all the moments.

But nevertheless, one thing that I am aware of is that I have feelings towards her but did not know on whether she has the same towards me. Maybe through this kind of mentality, it stops me from doing so. But what other things that I can do? We are separated apart by a highway, although technology can make us closer, but human relationship, the touch, the voice could only be heard through a “third party”.

But no matter what happens, your love will always be in my air, around me, as long as your name is carved deeply within me and I'm officially missing you.

Dreams...

Path which has been walked through many times, but did not thought that it was familiar. But once in a while, a question might be brought up to your head, “this walking path looks familiar. It seems that I have walked through this way for the second time.” Every step which has been taken seems very familiar and this is where more and more question appears…

Having a tough time as a tertiary education student, assignments, test, exams, personal stuff to be accomplished in just a minimal time, where as a life of a student, sleeping has turned into a habit where no matter when or where, it can be a place where sleep can take place. It did not happened to me in the past when I was still in high school or primary school where sleeping can be this casual. But for the past week, sleeping in class has turned into a habit of mine. Imagine sleeping in class when the lecturer is actually teaching right in front of the auditorium where focus has been made tough for me. But nevertheless, these lecturers did not take any action on me. Phew… But sleeping in class had made me embarrassing enough. Spectacles dropped down to the ground, pencils fell off from my hand, and even saliva came out from my mouth. What other things that might possibly happen when I was asleep? Only those who are observing me knew.

But why was I so tired. I napped through the afternoon causing me to have a sleepless night and it all started because I had a nightmare at night, causing me to have a sleepless night on that particular day and I needed to take a nap in the afternoon to actually regain my energy and focus to continue with my daily activities and the biggest problem here is that I did not remember what dream it was. But that wasn’t the only time where I had nightmares. Even when I take naps in the afternoon, nightmares hunted me. I still remembered where there was once in which I took a nap in the afternoon, and it only took me five minutes to wake up from a horrible dream and that I continued my nap after that dream hoping that nothing would ever happen in my continuous nap. But the same thing repeatedly happened and the weirder part is that it is a continuous of the previous dream itself. I got scared and I just ignored my nap and continued with my daily schedule.

Until the night, I was very tired and I tried to sleep but it hasn’t been going good for me as my body clock has been “rescheduled” to the afternoon. So all I did was rolling around on my bed, even with weird sleeping postures that might bring me into sleep but it did not.

I’m a weird person, who likes to think a lot and I found out one thing through my observation. Dreams that I actually remembered will happen in my life but it also goes the other round where dreams that I do not remember will actually happen in reality. I do not know about others but this is through my own experience. What a weird person you might think of right. But I was thinking, why didn’t dreams that I actually remembered won’t happen in my life while it happens the other way round? Is it because dreams that I actually remembered will make me to be more careful with every step of work that I am taking? Or is it some other reason? There is no answer for it.

If we take a look at the Chinese tradition, it is said that people who had passed away would actually pass messages through dreams. How true is it? Personally, I had never tried it before, but traditions being traditions. In the modern age, most of the things can be explained through scientific explanation, but not everything can be done so and this is where the traditional saying comes in.

But nevertheless, sleep is still a need in a person’s life. No matter how bad that dream would be, and no matter how hard you try to analyze or understand that dream itself, life still needs to goes on. Regardless on what obstacles will happen in the future, regardless of what message your dream is trying to tell you, or regardless on how trustful of a person towards traditional or scientifically explanation dreams, we are still humans and there are still so many unpredictable things regarding the spiritual of a human. Live life to the fullest.

Rainbow with only its indigo…

Standing in the middle of the city, the middle of the crowd, during a peak hour period, but the only thing which was there all the time was only me. Walking though pedestrians, looking at couples holding hands, but was wondering, will it last long? Until when?

Maybe too much of thoughts will bring a person down into a life, drained off by the flood of water, sending him to a place where no ends would be the answer. But the question was, are you alone?

Boycott, backstabbing… are words used to portray a person who is in its loneliness. But, what do you understand about it? What does these words means to you?
There is no answer to everything in a human’s living. Is drinking water a good thing? Might be good for health, might bring germs to your body, making you a serial killer by killing the microorganisms in it. But will it stop you from drinking? The answer would definitely be NO.

A person who is walking up and down, through and flow, all around the place, alone, without his partner or his friends, what kind of perception would be given to others about him. He is lonely, pity him, he needs friends… But here comes the question again… would you be his friend? Isn’t it the same case of people giving a hug to a person who has HIV/AIDS? But eventually, how many of you did? How would the person feel when he/she gets the hug from you? And what would happen if the opposite happens? The only answer is with you.

Imagine that a black hole surrounds your life, with no care neither from family nor friends, with no sympathy from the people who passed by, and all they did was looking at you in a manner, thinking on what this person wants, should or should I not sympathy him by helping him out. But in the end, that person just walked away.
It is easy for darkness to rule a person’s life. But in order for a person to brighten up his/her life, it would be like starting up a fire with woods under many obstacles. So, appreciate on what you have now, and remember, without working hard, there will never be happiness, but working too hard, might cause loneliness, and this is the typical nature of human.

Started without a beginning, ended with a beautiful ending

... the path of life turns out to be something unknown, but the past has already been known, all that can be done is to walk towards the future and not reversing back to the past, but turning the head back once in a while, glancing through the past would be things that would be kept as a part, forever and ever..."

I was lying down on my bed, rolling up and down, left and right and even started my yoga sitting styles just to get me a ticket to “Slumberland”. Without knowing how fast the time flies by, the morning prayers of a mosque had started and for my guess, it would be a terrible day as I had to attend a briefing in the morning.
I did not care and continued my effort to bring me into my dreams, but things got worst. Just a few minutes before my alarm woke me up, I fell asleep and it was the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I went to bed in less than 5 minutes and I had to get up, preparing for the briefing which happens to be a briefing for students who will be pursuing their studies in other countries. Although it wasn’t very important for me because I would be able to listen to the same thing as everything will be repeated next year when I am prepared to go for a further studies in other countries, but I did go anyway.

It wasn’t a bad morning as it started off joyfully as a young looking English man with a pair of suits on him, started taking up the microphone and started speaking into it, showing us clips after clips of that particular University that we will be continuing our education on. Jokes came out one after another, and unconsciously, an hour had passed. It wasn’t as bad as I would think it would be. But when it comes to the next speaker, I wouldn’t say that he is a bad speaker, but he is definitely one of the most boring speakers I have ever come into with. He tone started off in a high pitch in every sentence, and slowly, slowly, the pitch went off wondering somewhere. It is just like when you are bringing a dog out for a walk and you wanted to give it the freedom to run anywhere it wants. But at the same time, you were tying it up with a chain connecting to your hand and when you think that he is going too far away, the thing that you do is to pull the dog back to your side. So, will the dog feel happy about it? Will we get interested on listening to a speech which doesn’t capture any interest? It goes the same here.

But never mind, the first part of the briefing ended and we were moved into another venue to continue with our second briefing. There was one thing that I did not mentioned above was the crowd. It was so crowded, just like a major concert happening inside a class. How cool it is to be happening. Students who were late would have to stand behind and even sit on the stairs just to listen to this briefing. So, as a person who is ethical, as this briefing is not that important for us, me and my friends eventually took off to another place, skipping the second briefing, giving those who are really in need an opportunity to listen and ask the speaker regarding that issue itself.

So, our destination was actually cyber café and also the billiard centre. We started playing for around an hour and went for our lunch. But I was shock, what were all the students doing at the billiard centre when it is during class time? I was there because I was not compulsory for the briefing. Maybe this is the only thing where only students themselves understand. After that, we had our lunch and went back to college for a short meeting regarding our assignments before class started.

I was getting exhausted, adrenalines were produced batch after batch, just like a cell phone where its battery was drained and at the same time it is using its emergency backup, calling for an S.O.S., but the day is still young. Hours of meeting later, we went for class and I was at a case where the unconscious was taking over the consciousness of my brain. Everything I did wasn’t under my control anymore. Class started after that where our lecturer was actually teaching a subject known as moral. Imagine where you would still need to study moral after 20 years. So, will people be moral after studying moral? Students had been studying moral over and over again, but it doesn’t seem to me that the society is getting better in a sense. Therefore, other measure needs to be taken to cope with this problem.

Back to the classroom scene. 5 minutes after lecture started… 10 minutes after lecture started… 15 minutes… 20… 22… and “pooped”, I fall asleep. I tried so hard not to sleep during lecture classes as this period are the most important where we would be able to learn something more than what is written on books, for instance listening to real life story, where all humans are “unique” ( I guess students who attended this class would actually understand). But what happened was my eyes closed without my knowing and the next thing I knew was I dreamt about something which I don’t remember and the next thing I knew was that I moved my hand and swapped my spectacles down to the ground. It was very embarrassing as I was sitting right opposite on where the lecturer is teaching, but he is a good lecturer though where he acted that he did not saw anything.

Time passes and finally the class ended. But this is where the entire problem starts. Our lecturer walked into the auditorium and started giving our papers, asking us to fill up for our interns on the coming semester. “WHAT? INTERNS?” and she wanted us to fill up and pass up the form on Friday, within 10am to 12pm. We tried to negotiate with her as we will only be having class from 2pm to 4pm but she gave this feedback “… this would only be convenient for you, it will not be convenient for me, why don’t you just hand it up before 12 as you are not having class before 12?” HAR? I thought we are all communication students and lecturer? Shouldn’t we be using the Mix Media model to actually show a win-win situation in both sides rather than just only using a one way asymmetrical model. But I did not continued arguing because remember, my battery was dead.

So, the additional briefing for that day has ended and everything has ended, and then I went back home and prepared myself for bed. The bed, is always the best place to hang out, the only place where you have 100 percent privacy for yourself and not others, and this is why it will always be the best place of the whole house. I went to bed and I fell asleep in just a tick of the clock, dreams started rushing into my mind, brains started processing and everything was so realistic, but the only dream I remembered was my friends back in Kampar, Perak (a place where I pursued my diploma studies, a place where “no worries” appears, a place where everyone knows everybody, and a place where people are being treated as real humans, the relationship.) I was so far apart from them for this long and maybe it has been too long and this would be the time where I should be going back to the place I loved and the also the second home of mine for a trip, just to remember all the good and bad which had happened in that area. But no matter how, that everyone is doing well there and I misses everyone and everything from that sainted area, I miss ya’ll and I'm sorry if I had ever did anything wrong towards ya'll.
(more stories about me in kampar in the future.... so stay tuned to www.walkwitheu.blogspot.com)

"Everything that I missed back then....

















... has turned into something I owned today

Most of the pictures might not be available here, but those pictures will always be kept in an unfound and undiscovered place... my heart....

Unknowing the known

Woke up in the mid morning, preparing for the next journey of the day yesterday, was rushing through the whole process of cleaning up myself and finished within half an hour. Make my own hair up, wearing up my socks and shoes and started my journey. Walked to college and waited for my friend to start our journey. But I was there all alone when I reached and without my spectacles on, everything I was saw vague in my memory (although I brought my spectacles together but did not want to wear). Looking at the bus, passing by one by one, from left to right and from right to left, I was still waiting anxiously for my friend and was wondering where she was. She sms-ed me and told me that she would be there in 10 minutes, but ended up just like her, being late for 20 minutes, but no emotions got through me because I was still under a wake up condition.

I started sms-ing quite a number a people but nobody replied. Maybe I was a little too early, cause no matter how it was, it was still in the mid of morning, so probably nobody is up yet. Haha. After my friend arrive, we went to the bus stop, which is like only another 30 steps away from the place we met up, waiting for another friend of mine to start our journey of traveling to the central, Kuala Lumpur.

She arrived after she finished her class and we started our journey by taking the bus to the central. The experience was disgusting as it made me really dizzy during the journey and it took us more than an hour to reach our destination. This wasn’t the first time that it had happened, but we had no choice as it was the most economical and yet the simplest way to get to our destination, Jalan Bukit Bintang. But what we did in the bus was chatting all around until an interesting uncle popped up. This uncle, in my guess, should be in his 40s. This is the situation: This uncle would like to get down from the bus in front but he was scolded by the bus driver’s assistant as he mentioned that the bus will not be turning into the street itself. But what happened was that the uncle was scolding for approximately 10 minutes long just regarding the same issue. This uncle actually got the girl who was sitting beside her left her sits and moved her sit till the end of the bus. Haha. But for my thoughts, i would be thinking that both of them had their own mistakes. The uncle should be listening to the assistant as the assistant had mentioned that the bus would not be turning into that path, but the bus assistant had his mistakes at the same time because he should not be acting this way to a senior citizen. What kind of manners is this? Shouting towards a senior citizen. Imagine if your dad is being scolded like that in the public, what would you feel?

We reached Jalan Bukit Bintang in the afternoon and the only thing I saw other than tall buildings was people, people and people. This is definitely a typical city where it is a jungle built up by concretes, millions of people walking through the same path everyday, up and down, through and flow, and especially in the afternoon of a weekend where events are everywhere. The first event we saw that day was a shampoo event; collaborate together with a saloon where they have their target of the day by cutting the most hair in a day with the usage of a shampoo which could be purchased in the market. Haha, you might want to know what brand it was but no advertisements are allowed in this blog for now.

After that we continued out journey, walking up and down in the flood of people. Advertisements all around the hot and spiced up city, we saw a very interesting banner which tells people to actually save the environment. It is organized by a university and previously, all 3 of us who had went for this journey, had also organized a very similar event, known as the S.O.S. Earth as a part of our student project. When we saw this banner, we felt a warm in our heart because we had this as a part of our responsibility. Come on people, save the planet. We are the ones who started warming up the earth, we are the ones who started globalization, we are the ones who started industrialization, we are the ones who started chopping down the trees for the sake of ourselves, we are the ones… This is the time, THIS IS THE TIME for us to repay the earth for taking care of us for so long, contributing and sacrificing herself for our sake. Stop using things that are not biodegradable, stop using things that cannot be recycled.

We continued our journey to understand more about the city. We met up with another friend of ours and continued our journey knowing the place we thought we knew a lot, but regardless, there were still many places we had yet discovered. Walking up and down through the city, we found many interesting and small places which are still very antique, just like a small village, rather than being a real city. Tall buildings were covering all these small places, small people all the time. Most of the people who are living there are mostly senior citizens. We were all glance by the people there because I think that it might be weird for 4 youngsters to visit a place like this which doesn’t have anything interesting in it. But what I saw was a bunch of senior citizens, walking around doing what they don’t usually do. But definitely for sure, they are the ones who had the most knowledge about what had really happened to the central in from the past until the present, maybe from the second World War itself, or maybe from the changes of Kuala Lumpur from a place where it was a green jungle, converting into a concrete jungle itself, as there are so many stories which could be told, through a glance on them into the eyes of knowledge.

We walked past through the city, saw many cars which is actually destroying the Mother Nature, and the only we thing that we could do was to sit and look at it happening. We had no power, stopping it from happening; we had no power to stop every single car from running their engines because these engines are the ones who had brought globalization to the country itself. So, should we be grateful that we have the technology that destroys the earth for the sake of human or should we be grateful that we have the Mother Nature to take care of us all these while, giving us a place where we could build our own home sweet home on “her”?

We walked and eat and walked again and eat again until at night where more and more people had eventually fit themselves into a place which is already over crowded with people but they were still pushing themselves into the city. But nevertheless, this might be the life where people wanted. They always say that the more the merrier. But if you look at the other side, are the people really happy when they are staying in an overcrowded place like this? Will they find more happiness when there are more people? I think the only answer would be the thoughts of the people itself. Because everyone’s decision on a matter will be different this caused a different thought on everyone as different people gives out different opinions.

We took the commuter back to our own house which is located at the border of the city itself. But a day of journey had thought me lots on what is happening in the city itself. It was a trip which is worth remembering though my life was in a city since I was born, but things have changed since then. Back then was 20 years ago where even cell phone was still a thing which will be “WOW”-ed but not for now. Look at how things have changed our lives, how had the improvement of technology improved our lives, how an inventor’s brain improved the living of the world. But then, it is time…


Lets be green!!!! WOOHOO!!!


an event did by Subway!! it was very creative that they actually used human signboards and also car signboards to actually promote on subway around the central.


another event held in Times Square Malaysia itself... supermodel contest...


an event held by a shampoo brand collaboration with a saloon...

A new step into life

This is my first blog, a blog in which it will be a new starting of eu's life... might be good, might be bad,might be meaningful and might be meaningless. But this is a place where my updates will always be.
Walking through the paths with eu (which includes me and you), hoping of adding colours into our lifes, hoping of bringing in some new ideas into our lives and also more fun and entertainment updates not only about me, but remember eu. Hope to see ya'll soon enough with more updates.

-Chill la babe-.. (kenny, 2009)... haha...